There is a couple(probably whom I’m "borrowing" internet from) that are having an argument in public view. It’s crazy how people fight about personal things and they don’t really care who’s listening.

Seeing as I’m taking a break from my video games I figured I’d listen all night! haha, ok, not all night, but just until my stogy burns down, my drink gets to be nothing but an empty glass and my eyelids decide to close for the night.

All I heard from this petty fight was starwars this and starwars that. HAHA, awesome. I’m sure she’d have a cow if she saw my marvel comic posters. I could only be so lucky if they were to approach me and ask to see the inside of my apartment.

Bachelor 1, Relationship dude 0.

That’s why I’m single Although I do miss female companionship it’s night like tonight where I can drink and smoke to my hearts content and not have to answer to anybody but myself.

It’s got it’s pros and cons, but for the most part, right now the pro’s outweigh the cons.

/ugh. So many exciting things going on!

Tomorrows the boss man returns, which will be a huge relief I think for everybody. In a way it was great that he was gone. Don’t tell him that though. I learned more in the past week then I have in a great while. Even moreso, not just that I learned something new, I can now look at any problem and tackle it with confidence. I wonder if that will carry over in "real life".

I can only hope so.

My room is a maze in which I dare not enter, and even tonight I’m wondering if I should slumber in my bed, or crash on the couch. So many boxes of crap in the way, clothes, books ect …

Next weekend I’d imagine.

Tomorrows night I’m suppose to go to Brenden’s shack for dinner and discussion about the dogs. I’m dog sitting sometime(I’m not sure when but my calendar is open).

Hopefully she cooks ribs.

So the big thing for me as of late is researching a new vehicle. Every time I think I have the market cornered on exactly what I’m looking for, somebody or something throws in a curve ball.

After my visit home, it made me realise there is no reason why I can’t afford a new car if I live a "normal" lifestyle. By normal I mean, no more going out on a whim to buy expensive stupid things… nor going out to eat 10 times a day.

Since I’ve been at the new place I’ve been doing alot of things to keep myself pre-occupied without spending money. Well, sortof. Like my playstation 2 I just bought. doh! However, in 2 months it will save me the purchasing of internet/tv, both of which I don’t need.

I kind of like sitting out on this sudo sidewalk and blogging. My butt hurts from time to time because of it, but that’s nothing that a pillow won’t cure. We’ll see how it goes in the winter months o.0

Anyways, getting back to my new excitement of looking for a new car. I look around and realize I can do it. I just need to be dedicated and patient. I also need to think twice about my purchases and make sure there is a rhyme or reason for buying something.

My goal is by december. I want to be able to have enough in the bank for a safety net, and I also want to be able to put 3 grand as a down payment. A very obtainable goal. I also don’t want to exceed 400 bucks a month on a payment, but that too is negotiable.

Originally, a year or so ago .. I had my heart set on either a pickup truck or an suv. I realize that either would make me happy, and a sports car would only make me realize the waste of money. Sports cars are great, but they aren’t for Denver winters. I want a 4×4 vehicle so when I get snowed in again, I’m not freaking out. Last 2 winters have been pretty harsh, and my little car has gotten stuck twice in it. Of course that’s my fault for not having the proper items in my house to substain me during these storms, but regardless. The streets were open, and there is no reason why I should be scared of a little snow.

So a 4×4 it is.

After I came to this conclusion a year or so ago, I really liked the Nissan X-Terra, and the Nissan Frontier. Both were pretty cheap and my heart was set. Although the more research I did, the more I fell in love with the new Toyota FJ Cruiser. Only downfall to this is that because it’s such a new vehicle, the demand is high, and so is the price. Also, the used vehicles are just as much as the new ones because its a toyota so it was a lose lose.

This entire time I had my heart set on the FJ. A buddy of mine from my last job said I should at least look into the Jeep Wrangler. A bit less refined but he said it gave the better bang for the buck.

So I did my research and he was right. Not only has the wrangler been around for forever and a day, jeep isn’t doing so well so they are offering alot more incentives, more features for the money. The older style jeeps I didn’t like, just because of the interior but the all new 2K7 changed all that in my opinion. It looks pretty nice actually, and I can get one with all the features I want for about 2K less.

So I’m still looking, but it’s the excitement that’s got me going. I know I can afford it, it’s just biting the bit and doing it. Of course, with a new vehicle there are lifestyle changes, but I figure, if there is ever a time to cut out all of my "useless" spending, now’s it.

It doesnt hurt either that my car is(unfortunately) breaking piece by piece. Just this past saturday my freon leaked everywhere and now I don’t have AC.

My brake light turned on meaning it’s time for new brakes, the 100K checkup including oil flushing, power stearing flushing ect … I need new tires, my sunroof is on the out and out. Of course, there are other things too, small, but it’l add up to a couple thousand dollars worth of fixes that I don’t really want to sink into, I’d rather get a newer vehicle that suits my personality and the demands of denver.

At least that’s what I’m tricking myself into.

Whether it’s a good idea or not, it’s an idea and it’s my idea. So here is to the new year!

We’ll see what happens. I can’t wait, or can I?

Hmmmmmmm,
peace
-kc

It would seem to most, that it’s the winds that bring change, and although I can agree with that, its been my personal experience that it’s actually me "moving" that make me realize the change, both good and bad.

This weekend was rather hectic. Today was officially our last day to be at the old place and as I tidied up my last load to bring to my car, the biggest frown came across my face. I think the reason why was in part the flood of negative emotions and memories that I had with this place.

Whether it be the sleepless nights I had wondering if I would have a job with BROE the following day, or if it was the terror of being homebound during the huge blizzard of ’06. It could have even been the memories of solitude the following few weeks after me and Stevie broke up. I could keep going, but I figure you get the point.

Although the biggest frown came upon my face as I turned off the light, locked the door for the final time. As I walked to my car, the biggest smile came to my face. Again, the flood of memories and emotions that I had here … seemed almost surreal.

From bringing home my big screen tv, to seeing the look on my roommates face when he said he was getting married(/ugh, that roommate, long story for another day), Or sitting out in the parking lot, calling my dad with the news that I had two solid job offers both as a programmer and I had to decline one, to accepting the job as a programmer with a great great job. To the long solitudes of my bike rides, my thinking/personal time, looking at all the waterfalls and buildings on my way to the cherry creek reservoir. Waves and waves and waves of emotions and memories and thoughts, all of which I was overtaken by.

I know I blog and say this alot, but reflection is really good. Of course, sometimes it can be depressing, but I’ve been blessed for every frown I’ve had, I’ve had 2 greater smiles. 2 for 1 isn’t a bad deal I imagine.

So as I was walking back to my car, a smile overtook me, I couldn’t help to keep smiling as I squeezed into my over packed little car with my knees in my chest. I couldn’t help but to keep smiling as I got out in the pouring rain to drop off our final paperwork and check. I couldn’t help smiling, remembering the box of coffee packages we discovered on our first day in the old apartment, and I couldn’t help but to smile when I realized I left the same package for the next person who will be residing in that apartment.

As if a sacrifice to the apartment gods, that my next year, wherever it may be, will be as fortunate as the last, and that the move of change brings me good fortune.

And so here I am, sitting on the cold concrete third floor "sidewalk" outside of my apartment, watching the children play in the rain, curious to see what the next year brings with the biggest smile on my face.

For I know that the move of change is a change for the better.

Peace, I’m outta here.
-kc

I had a rather lengthly blog all typed out last night, only to realize that I no longer can free load off my neighbors without deciphering their WEP key.

Perhaps in another life when I’m not so busy.

So for those that are curious, I’ve been at my new pad now for close to two weeks. It’s been pretty nice to be honest. Alot different then what I was expecting, different in a good sense.

If my house gets dirty or organized not how I see fit, I can simply point the finger towards myself.

Of course it’s weird too. I’ve not eaten out so much as of late, and I bought a ton of microwavable food. Only to realize I didn’t have a microwave.

I am however digging the new pad. I was finally able to get my surround system setup, I got a sweet new couch, and my satellite speakers cords neatly concealed under my new carpet.

At night, I sit with a cup of brandy and my stogy and just relax.

I have to, I’ve been waking up earlier too. I’ve been riding my bike to work everyday. 7 Miles one way … not that it’s long, but I’m getting a fair amount of exercise. Instead of 30 miles every other day, I’m going 15 everyday. We’ll see how I feel this weekend, but I may go out for an expedition.

We’ll see.

I’m feeling really good right now. There is a certain something about the past few days that have somewhat brought me down, but for the most part I can’t complain at all.

I’d post a ton more, but I need to get back to crackalackin.

Peace All,
-kc

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I can’t seem to understand it how you’ve turned out to be so cold
You tried but were caught red handed, are you happy with your role?
It’s funny to me how you’ve turned into such a joke

And Sacrifice
False Pretense, You’ll learn again
Stop Pretending, don’t deny
False pretense, you’ll learn again
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It’s funny how life has a way of treating you like an etch a sketch. One minute you have a beautiful masterpiece, and something comes along and taps it and erases half of it. Other times it erases everything, and you build and create something bigger and better.

A blessing in disguise.

I’ve been given alot of these scenarios as of late. I can’t complain at all really.

It’s startling at first, but once my thoughts were collected, everything has turned out fine.

Everything has turned out fine. I just have to keep repeating that.

Somehow it always does …

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So I just wanted to update everybody, that yes I’m still alive! Hectic month for me … I’m moving into my apartment and either tommorow or the day after will be when my help(and trucks) arrive to get me all squared away.

I’m really excited. We got my new couch moved over there, and I bought frames for all my posters so it looks semi adult. haha, it’s kind of hard seeing as they are all comic books. My bathroom is decked out in spidey man. hehe … awesome. I love it.

I’m really excited. Scared. But excited. ‘Tis life.

I also am going to the doctor tomorrow. I know, 6 weeks later … but I was having a hard time breathing, and now I’m starting up with a double ear infection.

10am. Hopefully the doc will hook a brother up! If it were winter time I’d suffer, but seeing as it’s summer there are many things I want to keep doing, like camping, biking, and fishing … I figured I want to get better ASAP. We’ll see.

Peace all …

Great song …
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