The 10,000 pound gorilla on my back.

From time to time these gorillas are thrust upon me unknowingly, other times they are babies in which I grow and nurture to adulthood and beyond. All kinds of gorillas, financial, spiritual, friendship, relationship among many. I’ve had my fair share of gorillas on my back, and I’ve schlepped them along for various amounts of time ranging from a few minutes, to a year. Some are lightweight, these types are usually ones that after a few days or weeks you don’t notice. Others …. others are incredibly difficult and incredibly heavy with the burdens they bring along usually heavy enough to drop you to your knee and beg for mercy.

In my short time here on earth, I realized I’ve been paying attention to the wrong details. All along, I’ve only payed attention to the how and the why these gorillas were placed on my back. How could this have happened? Why have I been given the burden of this gorilla yet again?

One of the many things I’ve learned is that regardless of what you do, these gorillas will be there. One way or another, and if your back is currently empty, there are plenty of them waiting to be dropped upon you. And trust me, if it’s not one type of gorilla it’s another, and it’s never ending. What I failed to realize is that while I’m bearing the burden of these heavy heavy gorillas on my back, they are trying to communicate with me ways to carry them more efficiently, so that way next time the burden isn’t so heavy.

My most recent gorilla was a big one. The unemployment gorilla. He’s come and gone since the last time I’ve spoken to you, but in light of it all, It’d be foolish of me to think I’ll never see him again. It’d be foolish of me to think I can avoid him forever. However, I do feel confidant he’s given me the wisdom to effectively and efficiently carry him the next time I see him.

For now though, I’m happy I won’t have to see him for a while, and I’m happy I have time to take that wisdom that he’s taught me for the next time I see him.