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Yea, I know. It’s been a while. As I lay here on my couch I find it hard to believe it’s been over 2 weeks since my last update. Given I think about posting all the time. Given I imagine myself posting all the time. Given in my mind before I go to bed, the days events get replayed in my head on an infinite loop. Given my mind has screamed for a emotional outlet just to let everything out.Sometimes it feels that nature takes it’s queues from me and my mind. I feel that somehow the major atrocities that have taken place over the last decade I’ve somehow controlled. Silly I know. I suppose it’ll help if I explain a bit. In 2004 hurricane after hurricane hit Florida. I remember I was working customer service with Dishnetwork full time, plus going to school full time. My life was very hectic, and the only calm I would get before and …

I don’t even know where to start. It’s been one great day, and now that I’m settling down for the night, I can only imagine it’ll be getting better.You see I’m actually about 20 miles in the middle of nowhere, from the rooftop of dolly, the sky is beautiful. A black canvas with specks of white, all glittering. A site not normally seen from my apartment, let alone the city. I suppose that’s why I’m out here. So much beauty. Peace. Quiet. Ok, not as quiet as one would think. The trees are rustling a bit, every other minute it sounds like twigs breaking in the forest, only to cause me to stop breathing and shine my spotlight in the area. Of course it’s nothing but my imagination. It’s the silence. I’m not used of it. Its very soothing and relaxing but when it gets to be too quiet my mind starts to wander. Both positive and negative.I’m ok with …