Some say that we never truly unlock the “power” of super computers given the limiting factors of input and output.  Meaning,  we can never truly  tell how fast a super computer is because nothing can keep up with it’s input/output demands.  Sometimes I feel that my mind works the same way. Thinking a million miles a minute. So many words, so many thoughts, so many emotions that need to be conveyed by simple words and yet my words can’t keep up. There isn’t enough time in the day, oxygen in the atmosphere, or age in my bones to really portray what it is I’m thinking. To explain every possible reason for my thought process. And when I do try, I form sentence structures that seem random and fragmented, and in times contradicting what was said but with valid reasons. Sometimes though my mind is just over loaded with it all, that the only thing I can do is to sit and lay still, speechless, staring at the ceiling trying to put forth proper sentences, trying not to sound like an idiot. It happens.

It happens more than I like to admit.

Today was one of those days. One of those days that’s led me to the bottle, that’s led me to a good cigar. Breathing in and out, nice and slow, deep breathes, letting the smoke fill my lungs and the nicotine induce me to a good buzz.

So before I enjoy myself too much let me finish up …

Ok. Before you go thinking I’ve fallen off the deep end with my AFDB, let me explain. I felt it was a necessary precaution in case aliens ever come to visit, my boss attempts to do a Vulcan mind meld, or the psychic divas read any more of my thoughts! So everybody should know by now my Spanish teachers and hostess are psychic.We decided last Tuesday instead of learning Spanish we would share our abilities(or in my case the lack there of) I don’t really believe this stuff for the most part, but after a series of events I figure I need to take necessary steps in order to protect myself. Hence the AFDB. You see, my boss gave me some “intuitive” advice which was spooky, and also I got a reading that portrayed some dead on information as well. I don’t get it, nor can I explain it, but … it’s happened so far like they said it would …

Speaking of not being able to explain it. I’ve really wanted to purchase a new vehicle as of late. There has been a few things postponing it. One being that I’m nervous about my financial situation, if I”m really ready for a car payment. Second, my tax return, aka my down payment, was a couple thousand dollars smaller than what I was expecting, and lastly I’m not sure what’s appropriate to have for a car to income proportion. /ugh. So today I went again looking at more vehicles and when I went to a few dealerships and parked my car, my check engine light turned on.

Double /ugh.

Oh well. Maybe it’s a sign. We’ll see …

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