Would You catch me if I fall out of what I fell in Don’t be surprised if I collapse down at Your feet again I don’t want to run away from this I know that I just don’t need this ‘Cause I cannot stand still I can’t be this unsturdy‘Cause I am waiting for tonight Then waiting for tomorrow And I am somewhere in between I suppose this is the part where I go into a rant and ramble on incoherently for a few minutes. I suppose I should really. I’m actually quite disgusted with myself in the fact that I’ve somewhat cheated in my nail biting endeavor. I can honestly say I haven’t been chewing on them for the past 2 weeks, but now I find myself carving away at my nails with my longer nails and thus the vicious cycle begins.*grumbles*I suppose that’s life right? Full of vicious cycles? I’ve had …

Cause I’m proud of my life and the things that I have done, proud ofmyself and the loner I’ve become. You’re free to whine. It will not getyou far. I do just fine, my car and my guitar, proud of my life and thethings that I have done, proud of myself and the loner I’ve become.You’re free to whine. It will not get you far. I do just fine, my carand my guitar.Well let me tell you this, I am shamelessly self-involved. I spendhours in front of the mirror making my hair elegantly disheveled. Iworry about how this album will sell because I believe it willdetermine the amount of SEX I will have in the future. I self-medicatewith drugs and alcohol to help treat my extreme social anxiety problem.You are a FAKER! ADMIT IT!You are a FRAUD!ADMIT IT! You’re living aLIE! your life is living a lie! You don’t impress me! ADMIT IT! Youdon’t intimidate me! ADMIT IT! Why don’t …

Bullet points. I was thinking that bullet points should not be a way to define life, just a way to outline it. So, without further ado, some bullet points I’d like to point out.Wow that made no sense ….Ok, so let me rephrase. Some bullet points as to what I’m thinking, because properly formated sentence structures seem to have eluded me for the past week.Underground bands. God love them. Such a great band like “The Format” deserves far more money than they are probably getting, but I’d like them to remain underground. I know, selfish right?My New Savings Account. I’m going to put my stolen laptop money into my new savings account. 4.55% APY. No minimum. No fees. No length of time. Not to shabby.Thieves. Grrrr. I’m still so mad. Although I have a good problem on my hands(It was pointed out that this is an oxymoron). Ok ok, I’m sure it is, but I could think of alot worse …

Hang me out to dry I’m soakingWith the sins of knowingWhat’s gone wrong but doing nothing I still runTime again I have found myself stutteringFoundations pulled out from under meThis breath is wasted on them allWill someone answer me?  We just got back from comedy works. After going to the pub afterwards, I’m not drunk, but a little buzzed, so I figured I’d relax at work. Let it all wear off, finish up some work, blog, vent, ramble, you know, my typical life.I’m sure if my mom only knew, she’d be heartbroken. Although I hope mom would be proud of me. I’ve made some stupid decisions in my life, but tonight I choose to make the right one.I dunno …So it’s been a day plus … I’ve yet to chew my fingernails. I really think it’s going to work. I only say this because I’ve never looked at my nails and said “You know, those look damn tasty ….”, …

8 degrees outside today. Ridiculous!So I’m hoping that today is the beginning of a new me. I’m hoping that today, over 23 years of a bad habit will be broken, I’m hoping that I can handle and deal with my problems in such a way that makes me “normal”.I hope today is the day I stop chewing on my fingernails.It’s a disgusting habit, and today I hope it’s done for good. I had a hypnosis session to help with that and I’m optimistic that it worked. I guess we’ll see here pretty soon. So I went with a friend of mine, she too has the same problem, and as we discussed before the session began all of the issues we had and such. We were asked such questions if we were bottle fed, breast fed, if we were born prematurely and such. When she asked us these questions I was somewhat taken back. What did this have to do with …

I was asked if I’m going “green”. If I conserve energy and as I replied “Why yes, yes I do. I pee in the dark.” I think it was the only time I hear an environmentalist tell me to turn on a light.I’m feeling a good buzz, so if my thoughts are scattered,it’s justified.We went to see the new Alien vs Predator flick. To say that it sucked would be a compliment to the movie. The story line developed waaaaaaay to quickly, ugh. I won’t even go on any further. It’s no use. I was told it had 3 out of 4 stars …. BAH! LIES! Horrible … don’t waste your money.Ok, so now that I’m still ticked off, I figured I’d post this video of the thief stealing my laptop. If he’s reading this, he might as well stole my girlfriend ….. bastard. You can see him go to pretty much every floor, turn around on floor 3(the jewlers) …

“Side mis mayones gustos midugustos han nacido,Gustos al cielo le pido,A unque me westen disgustos”- Sor Juana Ines De La Cruz“If major happiness from myunhappiness has been bornI ask heaven for happinessEven if it costs me unhappiness.”“I’ll take the good and deal with the bad”.We learned this at my spanish class, and the first was a rough paragraph taken from my notes. The second is translated into English, and the third was how it was described to me.   We used childbirth as an example, given the term “born” was used.  Childbirth would cause great happiness, but would be unhappy during the actual pregnancy. Of course, I found my own similarities to other aspects of my life. I think that’s why this poem hit me with such enthusiasm like it did. Speaking of enthusiasm, I have NO IDEA how I came across this, but I did … and it really impressed me. This guy seems like a great teacher, one that …

It was all too fitting, that as I sit here before you on the verge of midnight, my all-time favorite scrubs episode was on. I suppose in the long run, it wasn’t such a bad day although it’s one I’d rather forget, sooner rather than later.My Laptop got stolen! It’s a long story … one that I’d rather not get into right now but the fact that it’s gone, well, it sucks. It was really my first “big” purchase. I know that I’d have to give it up at some point but not anything like this …::sigh::Oh well. What can you do? Thankfully they just took the stupid laptop and there was no altercation that ensued. Taken right from under our noses ….Sometimes I feel like my life and my life’s book was stolen and re-written as a soap opera without my prior consent.Blogged with FlockTags: ::ugh::

Words.There are quite a few words in the English language that are truly beautiful. Love. Compassion. Forgiveness. Friendship. Freedom. Trust. Of course, on the contrary, there are plenty of words that are quite the opposite. War. Hate. Lies. Murder. Obesity. Depression. Solitude. Work.The last few months I’ve had alot of “me”(read:solitude) time. I’m not sure if that’s by design, but I digress. Tonight was different in that I needed good quality mindless me time. So much of my time is sitting and thinking, wandering and worrying about nonsense issues. My mindless time tonight for myself was in the form of a Nuggets game. 10$ Nachos, 7$ beer and hot wings afterwards. I’m not sure anything could get as mindless as that. It was a good 2 hours of relaxation time, mindless, zombification me time. However, as soon as the game finished, the nicotine of my stogy and the alcohol from my beers wore off, and as I waited for my …

“We may have all come on different ships, but we’re in the same boat now.”~Martin Luther King Jr.I figured with the Iowa Caucuses over with, I’d chime in my opinion of it all. I had a couple of serious issues to overcome, problems that I needed to be solved. Before the post-caucus speeches and finally tallies chimed in, I figured out how to watch the Orange Bowl and watch the Iowa Caucus at the same time.Thank goodness for Picture in Picture.Something about politics excites me, especially now that I’m older and dare I say wiser. I think it excites me now more than ever because now more than ever I see the adverse effects it has on me. Whether it be the the $40,000,000,000 in revenue the oil and gas companies make while I pay 3$ for each gallon at the pump, the removal of “God We Trust” from every public location, the removal of a Christmas tree because it …