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September 2007

LOL night, and I mean that in every sense of the word.

Tonight was Robert Schimmel’s show and it was just as good as my pops said it would. I was able to get some autographs and a little message for pops. He’s going to love it (and probably not beileve me).

Sweet!

Anyways, tommorow its off to dicks sporting goods park to pick up some jersey’s for my visit to Houson.

Can’t wait!

Just wanted to blog my signatures. Pretty stoked :) And of course I’m pretty hungry …. and need to play my video games!

Peace all!
-kc

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I know I’ve come so far, and I have so far to go, any day now I’ll explode.

Hey dude.Finger lickin good!

So tiny!George!

There is alot running through my mind right now. Not anything horrible, no horrible or terrible secrets. Just thoughts, which I’m sure isn’t helping keeping bottled up, but I don’t really have anybody to talk to regarding it so I figured I’d rant, rave and rumble here like I typically do. I hate taking my frustrations in text form, but sometimes it’s a necessary evil.

My father laughs at me when I tell him my plans of material things. Having a nice car, a nice place, nice shoes, ect … I’ll never forget this, every time he tells me about my aspirations for a new car. When you pull up to a stoplight, the only person your trying to impress is the STRANGER that pulls up next to you. It’s so true. I have to admit, sometimes when I think about buying a new car I realize it’s as much about how much I need a car, need the 4 wheel drive, want to produce an off road rig as it is about “upgrading” my current car so people don’t think I’m a schmoe. Maybe even to produce an illusion of something I’m not.

Wealthy.

It dawned on me today, when a good friend of mine told me she was going on a cruise payed for by her boyfriends parents. Apparently they are well off, and of course the fruit doesn’t fall far from the tree. It made me realize that I’ve always tried to compete with people, with things far beyond my grasp. I think the reason why is because I’ve been faced with those situations of people I was in love, correction, infatuated with. I’ve been dumped for richer guys plenty of time and every time I’ve always realized that “I’m glad it happened” because it’s somebody who I wouldn’t want to be with but it’s still there in the back of my mind.

I don’t know. I suppose I’m jealous. I suppose I’m mad. I suppose I still need to figure out who I am as a person and not lose sight of the ultimate goal.

To be happy.

Anyways, that I’m sure didn’t make sense. Whether it be the couple classes of alcohol, or if it was my mind thinking faster than I can type.

Regardless.

Here we are. The rockies are on an 11 game winning streak, Closing in on a playoff birth. If so, we are going to get tickets. Sweet. In the womens world cup, we LOST, by a bonehead call from the coach. Although it’s all hindsight 22 at this point, he switches out the main keep for a lackluster performance, and instead of making offensive subsitutions when they are behind, he goes for defensives. /ugh. More blunders for American soccer.

When will it end?

So, enough rambling, ranting and raving of nothingness. Enjoy some pictures I took of George.

He says hello ;) Until next time I’ll leave you with a great song. Fits my mood to a T. Or Perfectly …
-kc

“Like The Angel”
They turn the lights down low,
In shadows hiding from the world,
Only coming out when it gets cold

The seas part when they hit the floor,
The voices carry on and out the door
And everything you touch turns into gold

Like the angel you are you laugh creating
A lightness in my chest,
Your eyes they penetrate me,
(your answer’s always ‘maybe’)
That’s when I got up and left

A beating heart and a microphone,
A ticking clock in an empty home
Still tells of these times so long ago,

Even though I’ve come so far,
I know I’ve got so far to go
And any day now I’ll explode

Like the angel you are you laugh creating
A lightness in my chest,
Your eyes they penetrate me,
(your answer’s always ‘maybe’)
That’s when I got up and left

And each and everyday will lead into tomorrow
tomorrow brings one less day without you
But don’t wait up just leave the light on
‘Cause all the roads that I might take
will all one day lead back to you

And like the angel you are you laugh creating
A lightness in my chest,
Your eyes they penetrate me,
(never cease to amaze me)
That’s when I got up and left

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The more I see the less I know, the more I’d like to let it go. Hey oh!

So here I am. At work of all places blogging. I know what your thinking, “Why! Won’t you get in trouble!”, probably but not really. I’m staying late to finish up a few of my coding projects that desperately needed to be finished today, and probably could have very well completed a little earlier but it seems like when it rains it pours. One problem after another. Simple, stupid things, some things I should have known better and others not so much. Oh well, you live and you learn.

It doesn’t help that I’ve been having trouble focusing as of late. I’m not sure what it is really, other than the fact that I feel easily distracted. Whether it be a blue bird outside, a good tune coming over the loudspeaker, a funny link coming across through chat or just thinking. All of which can easily sway my mind but usually I can take distractions as they come and keep pressing. Not really as of late. I’m not sure why either. It’s weird, for sure.

Perhaps it’s going home only to see George waiting for me(funny story in a bit, if I can remember), perhaps it’s the uncertainty that the future holds. By future I mean the all encompassing darkness better known as  the  unknown.

So many things running through my head, and it’s unfortunate it’ll never make it to paper, but I digress.

As I keep stating in previous entries, I’ve been trying my hardest to stay busy. By busy I mean either exploring the mountains, exploring Denver, staying with family and friends… ect.

This weekend I went to the zoo! I do want to apologize up front for the folks who asked what I was doing this weekend and I said “Nothing”, or to those of which I should have invited but opted not to. No harm intended, I just really wanted to do this trip solo, so I could take pictures at my leisure, eat my 50$ ice cream cone in peace. I took a ton of pictures, all of which have been posted(and about 90% of them captioned) on my flickr account. So go check them out. Once I get a moment, and available bandwidth ;) , I’ll upload the rest, the ones that didn’t make the “cut”, but still wanted to show to everybody.

It was a great time to say the least. I spent a good 4 hours just meandering. Waiting for a perfect shot, and needless to say I may not have captured the moment exactly as I would have liked to, but for a hobbyiest the time I spent at the zoo, my strange encounters, my blurry and fuzzy photos, my Kodak(or in this case casio) moments were well worth it. Alot of people have told me that no two trips to the visit are alike, and I’d have to agree.

First and foremost I have to say, that I’ve never been to a zoo in which I honestly felt the animals were well cared for. There were one or two exhibit I would have liked to have seen twice the size, and there were a few exhibits that I felt were too large and could have been proportioned out to the smaller exhibits, but for the most part, I didn’t feel guilty leaving. In Clovis, our Zoo was pathetic. The animals were kept in too small of cages, put on display for public attention instead of living in a “sudo natural environment”. I’ve been told that in recent years the Clovis Zoo has turned an about face. Anyways, getting back to the Denver Zoo. It was great!

They had a few monkeys, and I took a picture of one, that looked like he was observing his fingernails. It was so lifelike it was creepy. I had another different type of monkey think I was his trainer, and he came to the glass and licked it a few times in hopes of getting a treat. I saw a lion sit on his kingly throne(if you catch what’s smelling) lol, among many other fascinating things. One of the coolest things I can say made me smile the most was the Polar Bears. When you first visit the exhibit your immediate reaction is it’s far to small, given they can swim across 60 miles with ease(another photo I took), and yet they are cooped up in a pen no bigger than half an acre. However, I left, feeling a little guilty, a little saddened and a little frustrated that I was not able to take any decent pictures of them. I left, and towards the end of my visit to the Zoo I decided I’d go see my favorite animals for old times sake. The Bengal tiger, The lions, polar bears, seals …

As I approached the polar bear exhibit I saw what appeared to be 2 more polar bears … and they were both very lovey dovey with each other. Then they started to swim with each other, and it reminded me when I was a kid, I would push off with my feet from the wall, push as hard as I could and swim backwards. It was the funniest thing! They were like kids playing in the pool. Soon afterwards I left, but it made me smile. It made me feel better knowing they were obviously having a good time, and they were in good company :)

That’s all life is about really. In the  good company of others. 

After the zoo, I headed and bought new tires for my car. Something I was dreading to be perfectly honest, I mean, who wants to drop 300$ on a car they hope to not have in the next few months? Anyways, cussing and mumbling to myself I handed over my debit card. Swipe Away. Afterwards I realize I was not only lucky to have had all my tires replaced, but thankful. I had a nail in my rear right which they advised was going to pop any mile, and furthermore Betsie rides like a Cadillac now! Well worth the money.

I then jetted to my old bosses house for a BBQ. It was awesome to see the old gang again.

Good Times.

Sunday I watched a little football, slept in, and headed over to a good friends(Dan’s) house. We’ve been hanging out lately. I like to call it, I’ve been munching off him :) hehe. He and his misses feed me it seems every weekend. She tries out new recepies and I’m the guinea pig. So far it’s worked out great! I love it, and the more I visit the more I grow attached to the “Fam”. It’s weird because I go from my environment, which is usually calm, cluttered and quiet, to completely the opposite. I see firsthand a family in action. It’s good. It makes me envious at times, well, most of the times, and at other times it makes me somewhat glad that when I go home, it’s my safe haven. When things get rough, I can go to my room, close the door(or not now), lay face down in my pillow and just stare into the nothingness.

We’ll see … I should be going. My freshly baked code is out of the oven, and boy does it smell good! Bug free too! *knocks on wood* If I get the chance I’ll share my story with George. Until we meet up again …
-kc

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You can lose lots of money chasing women, but you will never lose women by chasing money.

Give me liberty or give me death. I choose liberty. You see, when it comes to my daily drinking(and by drinking I mean non-alcoholic) habits, I tend to do things that would get me killed. Diet Pepsi for example. I know that when I drink it I’m playing Russian Roulette each and every day(errr, night rather).

As of late, well .. to be honest since I’ve been single for the past seven months, I’ve been sucking on a bottle of Diet Pepsi. Much like a drunk clings to his bottle of Southern Comfort. Of course, I’ve had my moments sucking on my bottle of vodka, but for the most part it’s been me and my addiction, Diet Pepsi.

Each night, I empty the six slot chamber, fill it with a single bullet and for the past few months nothing.

Until last night. I woke up hurling myself off a bar stool 6 feet in the air, only to realize that the landing of my bed was misjudged. My dream that I was acting out was of me and WWF, Nacho Libre Style.

Monday night football, alcohol and burritos …. yum.

FG9JUY3F5Y3YUF8.MEDIUM.jpg” cannot be displayed, because it contains errors.So today I found a website, www.instructables.com and found out about a cool vodka lamp. I’ve been “working” on it all night if you will. hehe. I didn’t get the “ruby red”, however “vanilla” was my poison of choice. I plan on drinking it all very quickly so that way I can get a cool lamp for my room. I’m actually looking forward to it.

So tonight I bought a new styled vodka which is kicking my ass to say the least. I’m feeling it, and it feels really good. I bought it after the “recommended” vodka for the lamp. It’s actually really good. It cost alot more than my normal stuff, but I figure hey, it’s for a lamp and I’ll take one for the team.

Mixed with my normal diet pepsi and it tastes soooooooooooooooo good. Yum. And my little juan burritos for .28 cents. Awesome.

Not that I needed it to “waste” my night away. Today was a really good day, I did some tracking with some bugs at work and I feel I accomplished alot, although on paper I’m sure I didn’t.

it’s funny because although everything has been great and I’ve been enjoying my bachelorhood, it’s been weird not having anybody to come home too. I was told today that he was surprised I wasn’t in a relationship yet, and a part of me wanted to say “yea me too”, and another part of me wanted to say “I’m ok with it”. Some wuld say that’s why I have george And george, although he’s serving his purpose being the cool dude he is, it’s just not the same. it’d be nice to be able to come to her, to wake up next to her. /eeek.

/ugh. tired. wasted. sleepy.

Anyways, I’m in no condition to write any more. I might as well leave you for tonightt. Check out this link:http://www.instructables.com/id/ECQCOO5F5Y3YUFG/?ALLSTEPS

night all,
-kc         

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