Just breathe …

"One thousand and one"

Just breathe …

"One thousand and two"

Keep breathing …

"One thousand and three"

*five hours later*

"One million, two hundred and thirty five thousand"

What a weekend.

I’ve been reading a bunch of survival handbooks. I’d like to think that if there were ever a time in my life where I’m stranded, in an emergency I’d have enough common sense to get myself out of sticky situations. It’s incredibly the 1001 uses of a toothpick, or the 21 ways to boil water without water.

Of course I’m kidding, but it’s one of those, "Oh hey, I would never thought of that! Great idea!".

One of the neatest things so far that <a href=http://www.amazon.com/SAS-Survival-Handbook-Survive-Climate/dp/0060578793/ref=pd_bbs_1/102-7455604-3041721?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1183956090&sr=8-1>this book</a> has said is that no matter where we are in life, we always come up with our very own survival techniques. Whether it’s at work, at home or stuck in traffic. It also said something that I found interesting is that alot of the things we learn and grow from, are mistakes we’ve made in the past. Starting a fire requires patience and if you rush it you just waste time in the long run.

Learning from your mistakes. Knowledge is power. The will to live governs every being, from pack rat to elephant.

It’s true too. I found myself in a situation that normally, I would have freaked out, hyperventilated, freaked out, the whole nine yards. However, I’ve been put into this particular situation before, sort of, time and time again. I realized that I couldn’t tackle this issue if I just bear hugged it all at once and wrestled it too the ground. From experience I knew that I had to stop. Breathe. Count to whatever number I could get to, pick apart the situation, break it up into easily manageable pieces. By the time I realized it, I had already defused the situation, regrouped my thoughts and had a game plan.

Knowledge is power.

Learning from my mistakes.

It’s a good book, and although I’m only halfway through, it’s already taught me to try to analyze every situation. Think rationally, get a gameplan and proceed with caution.

Great book.

Of course, if your ever stranded, need 1001 ways for a use of a toothpick, it’s a great book as well

This weekend believe it or not was really productive. I found an apartment, gave them my deposit and application fee and now I’m just waiting to see if everything goes through okay. We’ll see, I have no doubts, but it would be nice to get a new place before I go on my vacation. It would be a whole world lifted off my shoulders. I setup my move-in date to be July 29th. That gives me a week almost exactly to move all of my things out of this place and over to the new one.

It’s in Cherry Creek. Before you ohhh and awwww, it’s in the ghetto. However, before you say, oh ok, it’s really close to a police station, the area isn’t THAT bad, and it’s also a gated community. It’s a pretty nice place and it’s got a nice pond/lake out front and it’s almost like one big motel/hotel but 3 levels high. I won’t have a patio, but inside is the biggest I found for the price. On a scale of 1-10, My current place is probably a 9, this new place is probably a 7. It’s in a world of it’s own, I suppose I’ll have to take pictures to show everybody.

I’m excited. I’d be a fool to say that I’m not scared. I’ve been writing alot lately how I wished the next 6 months would fly by, but I retract that statement because it is flying by and it’s going by to fast!

Like I said, I’m scared. Just because it’s an unknown to me. Although I’ve prepared myself with an infinite amount of knowledge, and I’ve also gained alot of information from my peers, so I think everything will be okay.

I suppose I’m anxious and excited because a new chapter in my life will be starting, and an old chapter will be ending.

No matter how many times I say this, it’s amazing to see how diffrent each year is. Even more so it’s amazing how diffrent every 3 months are, and even 6 months. So many changes.

Some for the good. Some for the bad. I’m confidant that life for me is headed in the right direction.

I just need to keep my head on straight and remember to breathe.

To use my urban jungle survival tactics that I’ve perfected over the past few years.

Until tommorow,
night all.

As I boarded the Nine Mile train, I looked around and noticed I was alone. I was driving home and some idiot ran a red light and was about 2 feet from making me road kill. I reflected and realised that I responded to a job posting on craigslist which I would have normally never did.

"Objects in rear-view mirror may appear closer than they are". I was thinking about this today. Sometimes I try to make things too abstract in my life. Had I only said hello to the girl in line today I wouldn’t be here alone, if I wasn’t doing 3 miles over the speed limit I would have timed my death just right, or had I not clicked "send" with my resume, I wouldn’t have a job. I try to make things in black and white, time and time again. I try to make life so simple. However, life isn’t simple, nor is it black and white. There are shades of grey, and further more there are many many more shades of grey. Life isn’t as simple as I make it, nor is it in black and white.

I’m still learning, I’ve made my mistakes and although I’d like to think I’m a smart guy, I’ve got so far to go …

I hate how it takes for white knuckle experiences to open my eyes.

/ugh.

so …

<img src="http://www.ozweegoville.com/Chron/images/white_legs.jpg" align=left width=250>I know, just what you needed right? A pair of white legs, but I just wanted to prove that I was rolling around on the rapids grass! Tommorow I will also be(hopefully) posting my pictures from the rockies game but we’ll see. I’ve got alot to do with the website.

/sigh.

I can’t even think straight. I went to the movies tonight too. I saw transformers. Great movie. Awesome cars too. I think it was well done.

I still can’t think straight. I wish I had somebody here to curl up with and fall asleep with.

I still can’t think straight. I have alot to do, packing for my vacation, packing for my move and going apartment shopping.

/sigh.

I hope I can think straight soon enough.

Well, I’m going to be heading to bed soon, so I figured I’d say goodnight.

I wanted to leave myself with two gifts. The only two songs I can honestly say go hand in hand with my life. Songs that have motivated and inspired me, songs that have gotten me through some very difficult times.

Songs that will put me to sleep tonight, and many more nights to come.

Night all.

I love it, so many great lyrics in it.

"Do you feel an underlying sense of urgency or are you as blind as me?".

"I’m so sick of all these people, but I’m scared to be alone"

"If life has taught me anything i forgot it long ago"

"I cant bear the thought of losing, I dread the attention winning brings"

And my favorite part …

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"the heart is something you can’t control
we either choose to follow or be left on our own
so we’re leaving here on a less-travelled road
as desperate cries grow louder,
I know we’re getting close, getting close!"
</blockquote>

Great great great song!
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Here is another from the offspring. Sometimes I feel like I have no brakes. I’d go into more detail but I’m tired

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The past few days have been crazy for me to say the least.

Monday we went to the baseball game(I took a ton of pictures) after work, we had a great time(or at least I did). It was nice to talk to my other boss out in California. He talked to me about the direction of the company, his confidence in it all and what his expectations were. It’s always nice to hear the viewpoints of others, and it doesn’t hurt to hear viewpoints of people in which I respect.

Tuesday we had a couple meetings and afterwards went back to the grindstone. We’ve got a few launches with clients coming up so it’s getting to be crunch time again. No worries. Being busy is a good thing.

Today, I ever every intention on going to see Transformers the movie. However, I didn’t get back last night until 1 or so … I went to smoke some stogies and have a few beers with Brenden. He’s pretty much my father away from my father. We usually talk about everything, but lately it’s been about his work(which used to be my previous employment). Alot of drama has happened recently, and some of which is comical. For example, I said hello to a certain somebody and somehow it turned into my future employment back with Broe. I know, weird right? Its a long story, but I’ll save that perhaps for another day. It’s always good talking to somebody else and it’s even better when you respect them. Wow, dejavu and a little bit of repetitio there with R-E-S-P-E-C-T! Regardless, I got home late, and of course that means I didn’t wake up until late. It didnt help that all the movie theatres in town either
A.) Were not playing transformers! Ridiculous!
B.) Only had showings every 4-5 hours …
C.) Sold out! I get the sold out, but the previous two I don’t get at all.

/sigh.

Anywho, by 4 oclock or so I headed out to the ballpark. I walked around for a few hours and watched the live bands for a few hours. Then I finished my book "Hatchet". Easy reading, very easy … in fact I was embarrassed when I bought the book because it was in the elementary section. I remembered the book from my childhood and had an itching to read it. It only took about 6 hours to read, which is amazing. When I was a kid it took what seemed like years!

Then there was the game, and then the fireworks. the fireworks were the best that I’ve seen in a very long time. I definetly would make it back to the following years because I was so impressed. Didn’t hurt that they let pretty much everybody onto the stadium field! It was soooo awesome! Being a huge soccer fan, all I’ve wanted to do for as long as I could remember was roll around on the grass. I finally did it today and I had a thought run through my mind. As if I were crossing off one of the top 25 things I wanted to do before I died.

It was a great time. It was so amazing to hear everybody singing the national anthem, and lee greenwood’s godbless the usa. To hear everybody clapping. It was amazing, and it left me feeling all warm and fuzzy inside leaving the stadium, with a renewed outlook on the future of our great country. Before the game started there was a flyover that rocked the entire stadium. Awesome.

Anyways, i need to be getting to bed. I’ll post more later.

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"You’re gonna stand there, owning a fireworks stand, and tell me you don’t have no whistling bungholes, no spleen spliters, whisker biscuits, honkey lighters, hoosker doos, hoosker donts, cherry bombs, nipsy daisers, with or without the scooter stick, or one single whistling kitty chaser?

No… because snakes and sparklers are the only ones I like.

Well that might be your problem, it’s not what you like, it’s the consumer."

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HAHA, Joe Dirt. Great Movie.

I didn’t do a whole lot today. I got alot of things sorted out that I needed to. I even remembered to pay rent on time! Yay for me!

Aside from sitting and watching movie/soccer all day, I didn’t do much. I organized my mail, opened a ton of mail and shredded another ton. I created a budget for myself that I’d like to stick too so I can get on route with my purchase of a new vehicle.

I heard from my roommate today for the first time in a while. I’m just ready to be on my own for good. Unfortunately I’ve got some hard decisions to make. I knew it was coming but I was kind of hoping it wouldn’t. He told me that he didn’t want to take Bill when he moved. Lame. He also said he would bring him back to a rescue center but I dunno. I don’t really think that’s right … although I don’t really have much say in the matter unless I take him. I’m not sure though …

/sigh.

I have alot to do in the next month. Packing, apartment shopping, vacation. All of it.

One thing is for sure, tomorrow one of my bosses from cali is coming to town and were going to see the Rockies. I can’t wait, I’m stoked!

July 4th I’m going to see the Rapids and then the fireworks show. I think that morning I want to go see Transformers.

We’ll see though.

So much to do, so little time.
<blockquote>
Sweet you rock
And sweet you roll
Lost for you Im so lost for you
You come crash into me
And I come into you
I come into you
</blockquote>

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So I’m going to be taking one for the team, all of humanity. Basically I’ve been sick now for the past 2 weeks or so, give or take and so it continues …

It’s a virus. I know this because not only has everybody told me it’s a virus, but when doing research it tells me so. By research I mean googling "Green Snot". I know, scientific right? Anyways, when one has a virus and a doctor prescribes antibiotics to purley stop the patients complaining, it only makes the virus strain that much more resistant to antibiotics. I figure if I don’t take them, the virus won’t be getting stronger so you guys can take the antibiotics and mess it up for everybody.

I slept in pretty late. I got home pretty late so I figure it was justified. I went over to Brendes Garage sale at about 2 oclock or so. That was immediatly afterward my shower so that gives you an idea.

Afterwards I went to Famous Daves which was clear across the way but oh was it worth it! Soooo damn good! I ate by myself and I figured I needed to get away. I needed to get out and recharge my battery. So I decieded I would go spend some time with the wilderness. I needed to get away and just be by myself where I could think and I think for a change in my life I accomplished that.(I’ve updated my photo gallery).
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I also went to look for a new car. I really want an FJ Cruiser but I really do like the nissan frontier and xterra. We’ll see, but that’s one of the things I did.

I also went and looked for a leather/pleather couch and i foun for 350 … it was pretty comfy. We’ll see. I’m getting excited to move. I’m excited for my birthday

Anyways, I should be going, i’m bobbing for apples already …doh!

Night all.