It’s amazing how big of a part an ego can play in a relationship. Whether it’s at the office, at home or anywhere really on this road of life. Even moreso amazingly, it can even play a big role in relationships that you thought were once over. Sometimes it can break up the best relationships and other times it’s there like an iron curtain keeping the beast at bay. It’s a sad truth, but a truth none the less. It’s just a matter who’s ego and pride filled hearts gives in first.
Now that I can write in a little more privacy it feels good. It’s been something I’ve been wanting to do for a while now and just never had time to. By no means am I blocking anybody from my thoughts, however I’m making it a bit more reclusive for myself, afterall, this journal is for me and I’ve never really have been one to play to an audience.
I think for the first time in a very long while I’m actually a little spooked at life. I’m one that’s not shaken easily, but the more I think about the next six months of my life, it’s really quite unsettling. I’m excited too, don’t get me wrong but it’s that knowledge of the unknown(I know, it should be the lack of knowledge about the unknown, but knowing that I don’t know is what I’m referring to!). Like staring at a big black abyss. I’m not even sure if that fully justifies it, but I’d imagine looking back in 10 years on tonights entry, I’ll get the picture…
Today I did go through a few of my older entries. Sortof a "this day in history". Its hard to believe my first entry was more than 5 years ago. It’s nice to sit and reflect. It’s pretty funny, no matter how young I was, and how long ago 5 year seems, I remember exactly where I was, and exactly what I was doing when I wrote it. Everything from me purchasing my car, my anticipated arrival in Denver to my first day at Echostar. All of which seemed like forever and a day ago. How time flies …
You know what’s even creepier? <a href=http://www.ozweegoville.com/Chron/journal.php?id=163>Check this out</a>. I was writing about the same thing … reflection.
That’s what we are here for! That’s why I put myself through these few minutes each night to reflect on the day, and days past and the future when I’ll read this and laugh. That is a good feeling, which I’ve done so many times. Even if I don’t blog, just read and say, yea … you were right kc of old. kc of new would be proud.
kc is proud. I’ve come along way since my first blog of 5 years ago. Perhaps my grammer has faltered but my writings I feel are more mature, and in some cases imature.
What a neat feeling.
Until tommorow.
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PS.
If you made it to my blog, and heck, if you made it this far.
I thank you for enjoying my life(and yours) along with me.
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