A far off place …

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You’re standing there alone
And so am I
But I want you here
By my side
Your smile at me
Is everything
The staring game
That song of love.
I look you in the eyes
I try to read your thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.
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I think I’ve written quite a few entries over the past several days however for some reason, they never seem to get published. Probably becuase they were all just incoherent thoughts, probably becuase I never finished, or due to lack of focus, forgot to press the "submit" button. Regardless, again, as usual I apologize for my lack of effert and concentration throughout the beginning of this new year. I said it would be diffrent, thus far it has, just not quite sure it’s at the frequency I need.

So … where do I even begin? I think I start that off with every blog, oh, and the usual, so much has happened. I think that’s true, but the funniest things I find amazing is so much HAS happened, not only since the last time I posted, but also since the FIRST time I’ve ever posted when I opened up this place 5 years ago.

For starters, one of my previous girlfriends that cheated on me after valentines day is now engaged to her boyfriend(luckily the same guy) and has a 4 month old baby girl, crazy eh? My college roomate and best buddy, also the same guy who got me addicted to chedderwursts and the offspring is now in the military as a marine and seems to be enjoying life. Traveling the world and such. He used to be in a smaller town and from what I saw is now living in California. Speaking of college, the woman that all the boys adored is also pregnant and getting married. To think 3 years ago you have 1000+ guys drooling, needless to say that’s alot of drool!

It was a pretty surreal experience for me. Just going through the endless people I’ve met, known and know just seeing how they were. It’s very sobering to see how far I’ve come, and those that are close around me. Ask me 4 years ago what my thoughts were on where my life was headed, and I’d tell you I was scared to death of not making it here in Denver. Not only have I made it, I’m making it, and so are those around me and everybody else for that matter. It’s life, the social river that eventually leads to the sea and everybody and everything takes it’s place.

So enough of my trip down memory lane! Quite a bit has happened to me since the new year. I started to seek new employment opportunities and since them I know have approx 2 offers on the plate. Neither are definite but both are in the final stages so I’m confidant. By the end of the month it’s my goal to be out of my current job … but we’ll see where that takes me. Both are for software development positions. One is in the heart of downtown Denver working on the 16th street mall in one of the oldest high rise buidings and the other is actually 2 streets south of where I currently live. Both will provide so much better benifits, pay and experience so either way I win.

For the job downtown I had to take the new RTD lightrail system. What an experience. I’ve always been into weird things, for example. If you ever get the chance go to mcdonalds or burger king early early in the morning. You will see hard working people starting off their day. Pretty amazing and as weird as it sounds I admire alot of them. Same thing on the light rail, and to add frosting to the cake, you get a great view of the city. The light rail opens up a ton of new avenues for me and Stevie which hopefully one day we can take advantage of. Go downtown to eat, or events ect …

Besides my good news in my job hunting I’ve been doing a little soul searching. Me and stevie do not get to spend alot of time together becuase she’s in school, and whether I want to admit it or not, it should come before everything else. In my spare time as of late, I’ve been of course playing video games, exercising. I’ve also been listening to motivational speakers(weird I know) but I downloaded a bunch of cd’s and have been just listening. Also, one of Stevie’s new years resolutions was to start going to church every weekend again, so we’ve been doing that. The church she goes to is actually the best church I’ve ever seen and been to. They act as if it’s your first day, they speak to you like your human and not a divine christian. They know that your human and make mistakes and they address them and the thing I like best its almost like going to a concert. Oh, and another thing I like best is the service is geared towards people who are struggling with their faith or having issues beileving. It’s really a great church and those that know me probably are going to think I’m going crazy but I’m not. I’d say listen for yourself(http://www.flatironschurch.com/listen/). They are very techno gadgety which I find pretty cool. Every service is recorded and on wensday is uploaded. I’ve been doing my best to listen to one every night, and even while I sleep.

Speaking of sleep … I was diagnosed with REM Sleep Disorder a week or so ago. Becuase this happens in less than 1% of all people, the doctor I got the feeling didn’t really know what to do with me to be quite frank. He put me on medication(clanasopan(sp?)) and also is making me wear a camel pak filled with tennis balls to bed with me everynight. Yea, weird right? I look like a science project gone wrong and I often wonder if the doctor is laughing to himself thinking, lol, is he really doing it? wow, I was just kidding! I think i’m going to stop taking the medication soon though, he said he didn’t even think it would work, nor did he want to make me take it the rest of my life so … regardless. I think I fixed my own problem personally. I think he relaised it too. Soda. I used to drink 3 liters a day, and now I just drink non caffinated drinks, but mostly water. Since november I think I’ve only cheated twice with two soda pops. I haven’t had any outbreaks since then but I do know I still move around in my sleep. I know my medication isn’t working becuase in the middle of the night I’ll take off my backpack and won’t relaise it until the morning. /sigh. Eating healthier, tons of water and doing outdoor worldly things makes life better for me.

I should probably get back to work now … I have senioritis(sp?) however it’s workitis.

Oh and Stevie, if your reading this below is my song for you and I love you.

You’re standing there alone
And so am I
But I want you here
By my side
Your smile at me
Is everything
The staring game
That song of love.
I look you in the eyes
I try to read your thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.
Oh.
I look you in the eyes
I try to read your thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.
You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my heart beating so hard.
We look eye to eye
And I’m swept away.
On a moonlit walk on the beach
Watching the sunrise for the first time
I’m in a trance
From that one slowdance.
You’re standing there alone
And so am I
But I want you there
By my side
Your smile at me
Is everything
The staring game
That song of love.
I look you in the eyes
I try to read your thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.
Oh.
I look you in the eyes
I try to read your thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.
You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my heart beating so hard.
We look eye to eye
And I’m swept away.
On a moonlit walk on the beach
Watching the sunrise for the first time
I’m in a trance
From that one slowdance.
We don’t have to talk,
We don’t have to laugh at all
I just want you here with me
We don’t have to talk,
We don’t have to laugh at all
I just want to be
You and me
You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my hearting beating so hard
We look eye to eye
And im swept away.
On a moonlit walk on the beach
Watching the sunrise for the first time
I’m in a trance
From that one slowdance.