Then I get a little R & R. Pretty sweet eh?I think so … I start my new job on Monday. I’m tired … so I should be going, I really just wanted to tell stevie that I love her and I can’t stop thinking about her. No idea why I blogged it, but I figure in 10 years I look into her eyes and smile or think of what could have been.Only time will tell ….For some reason I thought of this quote today. It’s so true and it’s direct from a classic movie:Why shouldn’t I work for the N.S.A.? That’s a tough one, but I’ll give it a shot. Say I’m working at N.S.A. Somebody puts a code on my desk, something nobody else can break. So I take a shot at it and maybe I break it. And I’m real happy with myself, ’cause I did my job well. But maybe that code was the location of …

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderfulStop me and steal my breath.And emeralds from mountains thrust toward the skyNever revealing their depth.Tell me that we belong together,Dress it up with the trappings of love.I’ll be captivated,I’ll hang from your lips,Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.[Chorus:]I’ll be your crying shoulder,I’ll be love’s suicideI’ll be better when I’m older,I’ll be the greatest fan of your life.And rain falls angry on the tin roofAs we lie awake in my bed.You’re my survival, you’re my living proof.My love is alive — not dead.Tell me that we belong together.Dress it up with the trappings of love.I’ll be captivated,I’ll hang from your lips,Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above[Chorus]And I’ve dropped out, I’ve burned up, I’ve fought my way back from the dead.I’ve tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said[Chorus:]I’ll be your crying shoulder,I’ll be love’s suicideI’ll be better when I’m older,I’ll be the …

<blockquote>I forgot it long ago …the heart is something you can’t controlwe either choose to follow or be left on our ownso we’re leaving here on a less-travelled roadas desperate cries grow louder,I know we’re getting close, getting close</blockquote>My new favorite band … I can’t get enough of them. Great lyrics, awesome beat … good times. Definetly a great band to start the new year off. Helps that they support a ton of great causes./sighSo what’s new? Gah, a ton of crapola. What’s new right? haha. I’ve decieded to start working for a company called spherebuilder in the heart of downtown denver. Basically they are located on the 16th street mall which is pretty sweet. I’ll be taking the lightrail to work everyday which should be exciting…. errr …. *scratches head* hopefully anyways.My current company actually said that had I not gotten these other two offers(see previous post) I would have gotten laid of anyways, so I’ll be starting a …

I heard the news today. It came out of nowhere.I wish I could run away,but where would I go?Is this my destiny? Something so unfair… What will become of me?God only knows.And they say the road to heaven might lead us back through hell.Maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow, we will win this fight and bury this sorrow.We’re so alive, still holding on, not ready to die, so we LIVESTRONG.My pride is left for dead, as my world gets shaken.The thoughts inside my head are so hard to control.I am staring down the unknown, but one thing is certain.You could break my body, but you will never break my soul.And they say the road to heaven might leads us back through hell, but we’re holding on for morethan stories to tell.Maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow, we will win this fight and bury this sorrow.We’re so alive, still holding on, not ready to die, so we LIVESTRONG.Casey,Thank you for joining me to make cancer …

<blockquote>You’re standing there aloneAnd so am IBut I want you hereBy my sideYour smile at meIs everythingThe staring gameThat song of love.I look you in the eyesI try to read your thoughtsI ask you to go with meTo a far off place.</blockquote>I think I’ve written quite a few entries over the past several days however for some reason, they never seem to get published. Probably becuase they were all just incoherent thoughts, probably becuase I never finished, or due to lack of focus, forgot to press the "submit" button. Regardless, again, as usual I apologize for my lack of effert and concentration throughout the beginning of this new year. I said it would be diffrent, thus far it has, just not quite sure it’s at the frequency I need.So … where do I even begin? I think I start that off with every blog, oh, and the usual, so much has happened. I think that’s true, but the funniest things …

<blockquote> Oh dear … that’s alot of seconds.</blockquote>Found this intresting … I was bored at work, what can I say? Haha, I must have been a christmas present! Ugh, that’s actually quite disgusting to think about. I did my name too — see below.<i>www.PaulSadowski.com</i> Your date of conception was on or about 25 December 1983 which was a Sunday.You were born on a Sundayunder the astrological sign Virgo.Your Life path number is 11.Life Path Compatibility:You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 3 & 6.You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 9.You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2445959.5.The golden number for 1984 is 9.The epact number for 1984 is 27.The year 1984 was a leap year.Your …

<blockquote>"Maybe six feet, ain’t so far down …."</blockquote>As life usually goes, it’s a roller coaster. Filled with ups and downs, lefts and rights, loopdy loops … you just have to hope that the operator tied you in tight, try to hold on and wish for the best.All in all I guess I can’t complain. I know I’m going to be scrutinzed by myself but I figure I need to write it down. I figure I need to at least document it, just so I know exactly what was going through my head at this exact moment in time … perhaps 10 years down the line, and laugh, like I’ve done so many times before in the past.No matter how far of course I seem to get, somehow I end up right where I need to. I have no idea how or why, and it’s pretty spooky to be truthful. I’m pretty sure I told everybody already about how my boss …

Great song … fits my mood.Quick note, some punk heads have been posting porn on my G rated website, so I had to disable the comment feature until I get around to coding an IP/content filter …..Much <3———————————————————–Somewhere between happy and total fucking wreck,Feet sometimes on solid ground and sometimes at the edge,To spend your waking moments, simply killing time,Is to give up on your hopes and dreams, give up on yourÂ…[Chorus:]Life for you, has been less than kind,So take a number, stand in line,WeÂ’ve all been sorry, weÂ’ve all been hurt,But how we survive, is what makes us who we are.An obvious disinterest, a barely managed smile,A deep nod in agreement, a status quo exile,I shirk my obligations, I miss all your dead-lines,I excel at quitting early, and fucking up my life…[Chorus]All smiles and sunshine, a perfect world on a perfect day,Everything always works out, I have never felt so fucking great,(All smiles and sunshine, a perfect world on …