I’m pretty fed up with a few things right now right, as I’m sure many people are. Right now I’m just going to bite my lip and wait until after the happy, merry holiday season to do anything about it. /sighI’m hoping things will change, as I’m sure they will, but when, why and how is left to be determined. Isn’t it weird how life is full of question marks and yet we get excited, nervous and look to the future with anticipation. Mind boggling really.Putting all of that aside, it’s Christmas time. I can’t beileve it, wasn’t christmas just yesterday? I couldn’t even tell you what my new years resolution is(I’m sure I could dig it up) but regardless, I have no clue and yet it seems like it was just yesterday. I have most of my gift ideas in my head, it’s just a matter of putting foot to butt and getting it done.So what’s new you ask? …

What a mess. Not really, it’s really just a tangled web I’ve woven in my head. Sometimes you have to take a step back, observe your surroundings and situations. Then there’s me, where sometimes I have to get a "bang your head here" poster on the wall and have at it.So I’m out of shape and it’s been spiraling downhill fast since I went on my last bike ride in late September. This summer I really felt good in everything I was doing, but now it seems quite the opposite, so I’ve decieded to hop back on the bike in an indoor setting. We’ll see how that goes.I’ve been eating alot better the last week or two, also I had to lay off the caffine. Why you ask?Well it’s been a while … and in that long while alots happened.Long story short, I had to see a doctor about my "sleeping habits". The symptons are rather bizarre, rare and almost …

I’ve been thinking about things so much latley, words cannot describe. Not today … not today.I got troubles, lord, but not today‘Cause they’re gonna wash awayThey’re gonna wash awayAnd I have sins, lord, but not today‘Cause they’re gonna wash awayThey’re gonna wash awayAnd I have friends, lord, but not today‘Cause they done washed awayThey done washed awayLord, I’ve been crying aloneI’ve been crying aloneNo, no more crying aloneno, no more crying here.We get lonely, lord, but not todayCause we’re gonna wash awayWe’re gonna wash awayI got troubles, lord, but not todayCause they’re gonna wash awayThis old river’s gonna take them away

Needless to say I’m tired today. In the past week I’ve traveled over 2k miles. When I got home I had just enough energy to unload the items in my car needed to get into my apartment, make my routine phone calls home to let the folks know they are okay, and of course my laptop.I keep telling myself that I will upload all my photos I have, and I will, one day, it’s coming. I just want to get my bearings first. HOpefully tonight catch up onto some Zzzz’s.Bummer, I’m so tired I kind of lost the point of this entry. Basically I’ve been at home(lubbock) since friday of last week. Me and stevie drove home, stayed saturday and sunday,carved a few pumpkings and got ready for halloween, however stevie had to leave on monday, and needless to say, she wasn’t able to fly home like originally planned, so we drived home monday, and on tuesday at 1 in …