So not only is my Betsie girl so fresh and so clean, she also smells like bubble gum on the outside and vanilla on the inside. It’s so cool, I found a new place to go pretty close to where I live to get her washed at. I have my bucket with everything I use to wash her in and when I started to spray the soap it smelt somewhat funny. Bubble Gum. Hehe, it kind of made me laugh just the way it smelt so incredibly bad and tasty at the same time. Oh well.My car was was prompted by two things.First I took the day off today from work. I had 3 days off. It was so incredibly nice and also it wasn’t planned. I’ve been sick actually for the past 3 days and today was somewhat of my recovery day. 3 good nights of sleep and I’m feeling much better. I’ve had severe coughing fits, sore throats …

This is no ordinary pain. This is the pain of accomplishment. I’ve been running two miles a day every other day and the days in between I’ve been riding my bike about 10 miles. It’s sounds like alot but it really isn’t. Especially when you have a good mini-disc player and some good music. I’m feeling alot better about myself after doing these daily routines. It’s been nice. A good break from the normal and beileve it or not I’ve been sleeping pretty good latley! I only sleep eight hours and when I wake up I’m refreshed. That in itself tells me that I just needed to burn off some of this extra energy that I’ve had. It feels good though, taking a deep breathe in. Feeling the burn within your stomachs and walking up 3 flights of stairs you can feel every muscle as it stretches and relaxes. It’s a really good feeling. The feeling is quite comparable to …

Typical males. Fellas, one does not need to be all touchy and cuddly in public with your girlfriend especially if she is gorgeous. It’s just not necessary, and yes, sometimes the need to show her off as a "Hey, look at what you don’t have" is honestly not needed. Me, along with 9 out of 10 other guys would agree with you, but come talk to me 9 months from now when she breaks your heart. She’ll tell you the whole, "your the greatest guy in the world" speach and then you’ll realise she’s dating super hot joe down the street. So gentleman, stop rubbing it in.I’m somewhat of a typical male. Me along alot of other guys I know usually tend to gawk. Gawking is defined as follows:look with amazement; look stupidlySo with that in mind, gawking is usually, in my personal views a state of wow. Utter amazment in the beauty that just followed. We guys usually only …

So I’ve been pre-occupied the last few days. I don’t know what it is with me. I’m just in a state of awe and limbo and it’s a great feeling. So let me enlighten you what’s transpired over the last week.The tour de france started and of course I’m rooting for lance armstrong for his number 6. I went out and bought his autobiography and finished it in two days. Seeing as I work and go to school this was an incredible feet. It an amazing book and I think I liked it over any other auto biography because 90% of what he spoke of I could relate. Cancer, life everything. It was unbeilevable how he basically wrote down what I was thinking. So I’m rooting around other websites and what do you know, same thing. So many cancer survivors share my thoughts EXACTLY and wow.I’m just happy to be alive. I realise now that once in my life that …

I can’t sleep. It’s no use either. I’ve tried … and I’ve tried. I even tried to go to bed at midnight and it didn’t work. I tried to for a drive, didn’t work. So I’ve been sitting here, twiddling my thumbs, I don’t want to do anything that I can use later becuase I don’t want to be sloppy by me falling asleep.So I’ll write. Perhaps I’ll write some more. I’ve got that commercial yet again playing in the background. I can’t seem to let it escape my mind. Perhaps it’s just the tour de france in general. Just watching it makes me want to go buy a bike and just ride. Perhaps my escape driving betsie is comparable to lances escape to riding a bike. Perhaps. I don’t know, I’m so jittery at the subject. I’m so excited and I hope he does well. God that would be phenominal if he were to win again. I feel like …

Again I find myself compelled to watch the NIKE commercial with Lance Armstrong. It was not only an incredible marketing campaign, but it was also an incredible commerical. One that gives me goosebumps to watch. If you havin’t seen it head over to www.nikecycling.com and watch the ad.To many times I have found myself reading message boards, chat rooms and such hearing other’s stories of cancer surviving. In my eyes cancer survivors share a unique bond. We can talk a million miles a minute of our own stories if anybody will listen. Over breakfeast lunch or dinner it doesn’t matter, our story is easily accesable and never forgetable.I think that is why Lance Armstrong as become an idol to so many people in so many ways. He for me is an ever growing idol and it’s no surprise. With his back against the wall, his french sponsers dropping him, cancer, he like so many people have risen up to the …

Silly captions … tricks are for kids! Ok .. I just noticed I have about 265 journal entries and a good junk of them have diffrent subjects. Wow. It’s not really that incredible now that I take a step back and realise how much devotion I’ve put into this, for everything for that matter. I’m just here right now. I think that’s how I am about 45% of my entries. Just here. Not tired, not energetic. I think it’s that time of night where I just want to hit the pillow but have no motivation to do so. Why you ask?For a 3 letter word, it’s responses could be endless. I could go on forever as to why I can’t sleep. Is it due to work? School or just life? I’ve got no idea ..However it does help to sleep hearing bubbles, bright neon lights and reflections of my fish as they swim around. I often wonder at times if …

So I beileve my break is here. I truly do beileve so. I don’t want to go over the top with this, so I may portray this as being somewhat, well .. somewhat reserved.It all started about 2 days ago and I was at work. A women I had never met before, let alone seen came and sat in the cubicle next to me(aka desk). Anywho, we talked, small talk and such and the next thing I know we started talking about schedules and such. She asked me what I went to school for and when I told her she kind of perked up. She perked up even more when I told her I was studying Game design and development.Supposidly her husband is a head hancho at hart interactive which is a programming firm that is always looking for programmers. My ticket. She said, turn in your resume and I’ll make sure it gets to everybody I know. So I …

So here we are .. it’s about 11:15ish and I was suppose to be working on my trig homework that’s due tomorrow .. I have approximatly 4 sections to do before my test tommorow. It’s got it’s pro’s and cons procrastinating, one of which I have to be up for another hour or so but also it may mean that I’ll have it all fresh in my head before the test! I suppose one of my biggest faults is my in-efficiency. I put so much work into something with no planning or structure and -POOF- it all goes to mayhem.So I’m home. It’s not quite home until you do your first load of laundry, or until you get the internet. We did. It’s a trade-off. One of my roomates opened his yapper and was like do we get to keep the FREE cable? Of course we don’t but thanks for bringing it up! -sighs- Anywho .. no matter. Between tv …

So I’m back, ok… not completly online as of YET. Tommorow we are suppose to have cable internet installed but we’ll see. No guarentees especially with cable companies. Anywho .. I’m typing and I’ve probably have cameras watching me. -waves to the cameras- So anyways… today was an incredibly fun filled day. Last night we had a get together with a bunch of strangers. They were friends with one of my roomates. I feel he’s going to be a good outlet for us guys that are hermits so to speak. It was nice to see some fresh faces and of course the ladies outnumbered the guys 2 to 1.It was alot of fun and we watched ZOOLANDER. Halarious movie. Comic genius and of course the company made it that much more better. One of the guys was from texas so we had a good gab. They definetly tell me with my tongue that I’m from the east. The …