So I sat here debating. I saw today that they just opened up the pool. What does that mean? I got to get in shape? I’m now at a cool 138lbs which means I’m about 3lbs heavier then I was last year. Does that mean I’m obese? Hehe .. Anywho .. I was thinking about last year at about this time, give or take a couple of weeks I started to run. I used to run instead of writing in my journal. They both did the same job however one was a tad bit more healthier then the other. 7 minutes and 8 seconds was my best last year running the mile. I wonder what, when or even if I will even start to run this year. I think if anything I should change my diet. We’ll see. I’m not going to worry about it.

I’m actually enjoying single life beileve it or not. I think this summer my approach to life will be diffrent. Just have fun. That’s what we all need to do but probably never realise it. Just do what we want, when we want, how we want. Today at work we got into a pretty huge debate over relationships and friends. Is it ok for one to ignore what a friend says about his/her "intrest" becuase it’s not your friends who live with the consequences it’s you. I think the big debate about all of this was the factor of "I told you so" when things turn sour. Yea well you don’t see this happening when things are going so incredibly perfect. So yea … I’m just in a debating mood. Why? I’ve logged about 12 hours of classes, 16+ hours of work on about 5 hours of sleep. I’ve been working forever on these stupid term papers. I have 6+ page(2000+ word) technical document for my technical writing class.

A technical document for my technical writing class? No really go on …

So yea. It doesn’t help either in my human relations class I have to do a presentation with another peer of mine. It has to be a court decieded case of discrimination in the work place. I spent a whole 2 seconds decieding what I’d do mine on. I could do my paper on the typical black white discrimination but who wants to do that. That topic has been beaten with a stick about fifty billion times. How about Affirmintive Action that has MEN VS WOMEN. Looking at all possibilities and of course my teacher who is a feminist I’d figure I’d do the Johnson v. Transportation Ageny, Santa Clara County, CA(1987) Its taken me actually four days to find this case just becuase it had to be perfect. The male vs female aspect and of course something that was ruled in court. Oh, and lets not forget something that will get my teacher all riled(sp?) up.

Alright, an hour later I found myself sidetracked. I was listening to music and I heard an ad for www.goarmy.com I was very intrigued. I listened to probably 15 movies. Weeks 1 through 9 in basic training as to what was to be expected, what was to be done. Very intresting. Something I’ve wanted to do for a while. Join the army. Not even enlist for 50+ years but to try it out for 3 years. See what would happen. I think I want to do it just for basic training. I think I’m strong both mentally and physically but I know I’d collapse. I’m not cut out for it but it would be a test that I could use to measure myself. I often wonder how far I’d get, how I’d do. Hand to hand combat. I’ve never gotten in a fight before in my life and now I’m being taught to fight for my life. Weird. Waking up at 5 in the morning with only 3 hours of sleep I can do. Running a mile or so I’m sure I could do if they feed me 3+ times a day. Change my diet etc .. I would love to try out the army bootcamp. Just to see … I guess I’m weird. I just want that sense of pride, accomplishment. One of the biggest thing they do is teach how to overcome fear. That’s what I want. I want to learn how to overcome my fears, both old and new. But I suppose that’d be to much to ask.

Dangit. 2:00am in the morning and I’ve done Zilch as to what I would like to have done. I’m on the last level of Splinter Cell: Pandora Tommorow. I’m about 75% with my 3d pong. I’m using a game engine already built. It’s literally 3 mb of data and it’s a super good engine. Obviously got some flaws but for the most part the Author did a good job writing the book as well as the engine. I’m currently working on 3d pong

Macaroni and cheese is done. Must go … MMMMMmmm does this strawberries and cream glade air freshner smell oh so good!

take care all,
kc

-yawns- Only eleven and I’m already yawning. I figure I’d right now and then head off to bed seeing as I’m really tired. It’s overall been a very good weekend. I just hope that it will come again as quickly as it came.

I cleaned out myfish tank. I know I know… it’s been forever but I did find out some excellent news. I hadn’t cleaned it out in about 4 months and it was crystal clear, no problems or buildup or anything. Of course I change the filter cartridges regularly but overall no "gook" at the bottom of the tank. Always a good sign. Anywho. I left the tank alone for about an hour or two turning off all filtration and when I put it back it it was really cloudy(I stirred everything up) Within matter of minutes of turning on my filtration system on it was crystal clear! I won’t be feeling quilty anymore if it goes a while before it’s clean. As long as it’s clean then that’s all that matters.

So not alot done today. Tons of programming. I read a couple hundred papers of newspaper articles. Such as windows new OS minimum specs would be a terabyte of hard drive space, 2 gigs of ram and the video card would have to be 3x’s the highest video card on the market. Pretty hard to beileve.

so much more to write but I really need to take my sleeep seriously. I need to be in bed, like now…

bye for now,
kc

So this song that I just recently posted I can’t get of my head. It’s such a great song. Well that and burn by Usher. Ok ok, and also obdilabadabadidbadoa do by The Beatles. Hehe. I can’t get that one out of my head either.

So I’m sitting here. Hoping like time and time again that my all natural sleeping pill(aka my journal) will put me to sleep. I’m not quite sure if I’ll be able just because the music keeps playing. Excellent song after another. I suppose I’m just waiting for the bad one but it just won’t happen. I suppose I’m tired. I always do this though. I tell myself it’s ok to stay up late on my two days off becuase I’ll just get sleep later on. NOT! Tommorow I have to write, or finish rather my technical document for my technical writing class. It’s suppose to be about 4-5 thousand words plus a few pictures. Yay. I can’t wait. I don’t really have anything to do tommorow. Two things. I do need to finish my homework, or at least play a little catchup and secondly for fun I want to go to Car Toys. I hear they sell security systems, remoteless key entries and keyless starters. Super SHIBBY. I won’t be getting one for a while but it’s ok to at least go window shopping. Drool a bit. Like I did over my computer. Good Stuff. I can’t wait. We’ll see though how it goes

I should be going. My song just ended. My que to go I suppose … I need to … grrr .. I don’t want to but I know it’s the most sensible thing to do. Besides, like a sudden rush to me I’m all of a sudden sleepy. -sighs-

night fanclub,
kc

Anywho .. today’s been quite the day. It’s 3 in the morning and I should be going asleep. Tommorow fanclub. Tommorow. Besides from Usher’s burn I want to leave you a good song by Mario Winans featuring P.Diddy. Good song good song. But i’m off to sleep. Listen to this song. It’s pretty good.

[Verse 1 - Mario Winans]
Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn’t me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don’t wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can’t take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don’t let it show
Oh baby, I don’t wanna know

[Verse 2 - Mario Winans]
Oh baby
I think about it when I hold you
When lookin in your eyes, I can’t believe
I don’t need to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself

[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don’t wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can’t take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don’t let it show
Oh baby, I don’t wanna know

[Break - Mario Winans]
Did he touch you better then me (touch you better then me)
Did he watch you fall asleep (watch you fall asleep)
Did you show him all those things that you used to do to me (do to me baby)
If your better off that way (better off that way)
Baby what I like to say (all that I can say)
Go on and do your thing and don’t come back to me
(Stay away from me baby)

[Verse 3 - P. Diddy]
I don’t wanna know where your whereabouts or how you movin
I know when you in the house or when you cruisin
It’s been proven, my love you abusin
I can’t understand, how a man got you choosin (yeah)
Undecided, I came and provided ma
My undivided, you came and denied it (why?)
Don’t even try it, I know when you lyin (I know when you lyin)
Don’t even do that, I know why you cryin (stop cryin)
I’m not applyin no pressure, just wanna let you know
That I don’t wanna let you go (I don’t wanna let you go)
And I don’t wanna let you leave
Can’t say I didn’t let you breathe
Gave you extra cheese (c’mon), put you in the SUV
You wanted ice so I made you freeze
Made you hot like the West Indies (that’s right)
Now it’s time you invest in me
Cause if not then it’s best you leave
Holla, yeah

[Chorus - Mario Winans]
I don’t wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can’t take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don’t let it show
Oh baby, I don’t wanna know

If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can’t take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don’t let it show
Oh baby, I don’t wanna know

If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can’t take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don’t let it show
Oh baby, I don’t wanna know