So today has been a rather intresting day. It all started with my Human Relations class. I showed up exactly on time. I walked in, sat down and so started the lecture. It was all in part becuase traffic was horrific this morning. They shut down the interstate basically for the T-Rex project which is almost completed. Traffic was at a standstill. I listened mostly to track 10 of the new Offspring CD "Splinter". Due to it’s lyrical content I’d rather not post it here however you can easily find it online at any lyrics search engine. Anywho .. on the radio was this guy that survived a plane crash about 14 years ago. Supposidly he and everybody else on this jumbo jet crashed into the earth at a raging 250mph. Yes, 250 MILES PER HOUR. That’s crazy. He stated how he entered the fusalage to save a baby that was thrown up to 30 seats. Incredible. The whole story …

So I figure this journal is what’s been mostly on my mind. My self worth, pride and mistakes of course. Probably alot longer then normally accustomed to but I feel the necessary urge to vent my life to everyone. Wether it be from relationships to life to the stupid things people take for granted.I can honestly say that when it comes to women I’ve not had that many relationships in my life. My first "true love" of many was, well …. grrr … a religous nut. Perfect in every sense of the word. Definetly gorgous, attractive, very quite, and most importantly she was incredibly smart. So incredibly smart. I was so envious of her in that department. We could talk for hours and hours, about anything. She was perfect in every sense of the word except one thing. GOD. I remember writing numerous journal entries about how I thought we were perfect for each other except religion. Supposidly GOD told …

So I’m here. I just finished watching Good Will Hunting. I found it rather intresting. It definetly was an excellent movie and I may even find myself watching it again tommorow. The thought of having so much knowledge would overwhelm me. I know teachers that I’d do anything just to have a 10th of their knowledge. Most people call me smart but there is always 10 people out there better smarter or whatever the case may be in which you can improve upon yourself. I really did like it. Not much else to say.I suppose my head is spinning. Thoughts wondering. It’s been about 2 weeks since I’ve talked to jo. For all I know she’s with somebody else. At this very moment … while I’m here writing about her. Thinking about her. I kind of just sigh to myself. One heavy breath after another. I suppose it’s quite comical if you were to see me. I just can’t describe …

So yea, was strumming through a people magazine at work today and I see a TRIM SPA commercial and I see this. www.trimspa.com. Intrigued I go there and sure enough I see anna nicole smith. Huge as she was and somewhat … somewhat UN-Intelligant as she is I find her very very attractive physically of course. I would never even think about such a being as a mate just because I think I’d have better conversations with a rock however physically. Wow. I was shocked. Still am. I just can’t beileve the transformation. However it’s been quite some time, year or two since I’ve last seen her on her tv show. Lol, incredible how attractive some ladies are and yet nothing up top, up top in the head of course.I don’t know. I’m still in awe. Of course taking a look at the main image the picture of her on the right is so very unattractive. The one I’m referring …

So today good stuff is going on. I needed to watch ConeHeads on my days off however I never got around to it. The Pest however was watched … multiple times. I cleaned both the inside and outside of my car however my trip downtown with the rain and all kind of ruined all of that. Inside’s clean though. I bought two cd’s when I was delayed at the Houston International Airport. (coughs) Sorry … IAH. International Airport of Houston. It’s actually an incredibly nice airport. They have a "sky box" used specifically for fox sports. I sat up there for about two seconds then felt like I had to buy something so I left. Went down to the stores and bought a pretzel, some CD’s. Disturbed and 3rd eye blind. Semi-Charmed life. Hence the previous journal posting. Disturbed. Awesome band. Everything that I look for. Good lyrics, head banging fast paced. Awesome.It doens’t help any either that it’s getting …

Ok .. so here is my picture … located herehttp://ais.cms.k12.nm.us/~cmerrill/kc.jpgUnfortunatley my blog will not let me post pictures, it’s suppose to block them out, which it’s doing it’s job, just annoying at this point in time.

(ding ding) As I wake up to a low constant humming, music in my ears I find myself in an unusual environment. Jarred and tossed about I realise now where I am at. 27,000 feet above earth, approximatley 300 miles from home and 600 miles per hour I find myself on a new state of the art boeing 737 non-stop to denver. The ding was the removal of the seatbelt sign basically stating "you are free to move about the cabin". Much to my dismay I thought I was asleep for about 3 hours however it only turned out to be about 30 minutes. Dazed and confused I gather my thoughts only to realise I have my headphones blaring and the next phrase I hear isI wonder how’s it going to be when it goes down. HOw’s it going to be when I’m not around. How’s it going to be when you find there is nothing between you and me, …

So right now I’m at home and things couldn’t be going more incredible then now. I’m not going to waste my time writing … just know that I’m in lubbock and things are going awesome!Tommorow I get new contacts and glasses! –does happy dance–hehe … I having two pina coladas(sp?) by garth brooks singing …I’ll leave it at that. See you soon denver, hopefully not soon enough …theMayor

Sitting here. As you can tell it’s going for 4 in the morning. I probably won’t sleep yet again. If I do it wouldn’t be high quality. Just sleep. The act of lying still in a comfortable warm cozy fuzzy bed. We were watching the discovery channel and there was some tribe, some civilization that used to say "It’s time to end life". That’s how it translated into english. It’s time to end life. That was sleep of course. Not the ending of life but to sleep. Sometimes I feel that they are right and wrong in a sense. I realise after much thought that they actually mean that everynight they die and are re-born as if to start a new day clean and fresh. It’s a good concept I guess, however mis-translated it seems. I sometimes think that would be a good talent or superhero power to have. The power to wake up everymorning as if yesterday never happened.Hmmm …

So I’ve finally dug out my laptop in hopes of finding some new found faith in all that’s transpired over the last few weeks. I didn’t ever feel I’d look at my laptop the same way ever again. I thought it was the cause of our breakup. Ok, ok … so I’m being a little harsh but I really did. I thought I spent to much time on it, doing homework and the such. So I never really paid much attention to her. So broken heart in hand, along with my laptop I sit before you today.Finished. That’s all I can think of at the moment. Well, that’s what describes me and jo anyways. I can’t even remember who called who or even why, in fact it didn’t even matter. We talked for about a half hour, then I decided to ask her out to eat. To my dismay she accepted. Wether it was to get a free meal out …