Yea, that about sums it up. My days, weeks, months are just flying by. They say time flies when your having fun however I’ve somewhere along the line missed the "fun" part.
Grrr … I put "fun" in italics however my code is built to resist the urge to put in html tags, I have a bad habbit of changing font color and not setting the end tag 
I’m lazy … what can I say?
Anywho … Where was I? Oh yes … fun. I’ve somehow missed the fun train. So .. Your probably wondering what’s new with me and what I’ve been up to? Oh yes … the awaited question.
Not alot.
Surprised .. shouldn’t be. I work, sleep, eat, and do this all over again. However you would be happy to hear that my OzweegoVille is coming along nicely. I’ve not uploaded all of it. My newer version looks simliar to this however it’s got more content and such. It’s actually pretty neat. Like I said before, I’m developing code that allows me to dynamically update everything. Tutorials, website forums, newsletter the whole nine yards. It just takes time. I don’t have quite as much free time as I used to.
Me and my roomate were discussing how time flies. Hard to beileve I’ve been in denver almost two years. Hard to beileve this year I will be 20. Uggh. As I clear this massive lump growing in the back of my throat. 20?! Hard to beileve I’ve had my braces off for 7 months. Hard to beileve that I’ve worked at my current job for 1 year and a few months. Hard to beileve me and jo have been dating now for 6 months. Hard to beileve alot of things. I honestly don’t feel mature enough to handle all of this. I honestly don’t. I think the only reassurance I have is that everybody feels this way, or at least that’s how it is portrayed to me. I wish they developed a manuel for this kind of stuff. This game of life. I figure I’m ahead, probably ahead of most, however it doesn’t feel that way. Not at all. But I couldn’t ask for anything better. I honestly couldn’t. I would hope this errie gut feeling I have would decipate however I’m not quite sure how long this will last. I figure, or at least hope, that everybody goes through this once in their life. I think this is mine.
But how can this be so? I’ve already had my mid-life crises! I was a young kid in the hospital. Not again. However I wouldn’t quite call this a mid-life crises, moreless somebody took away my map. My guidance, my direction …
I’m sure in time I’ll find my footing and my place. For right now how confused I am with myself, and how I am holding up in society. I honestly couldn’t be happier. I think things for the most part have turned out excellent. For better or for worse … right now, life is good.
Anywho … I’m done rambling .. venting or releasing. Whatever you wish to call this.
I am not quite finished talking, err typing rather though! I’ve set goals. First let me tell you what I had originally planned. I originally planned to pay off my current laptop, and purchase another, highly sophisticated laptop. A golden gem that would put me ahead a few years. Right now my laptop is perfect however things that I need to now it’s somewhat lacking. Ok, let me rephrase. I am somewhat ignorant when it comes to upgrading laptops. So I was going to purchase a new one. I’ve since then decieded completly diffrent. I’m glad I’ve come up with yet another solution. This solution is far more affordable and offers far more advantages in the future, no just today. I am going to build my own! I bought a 30$ book .. read it throughouly, and also have had previous knowledge of internal components and realised .. wow… this is incredibly easy, I would have to pay only me for assembly and of course I pick the parts that I want! Total – the monitor (which I havn’t quite decieded if or what I will get) the total price for a computer that I estimated at dell was approximatly 3000$ I can build myself for 600$. Of course that is give or take a hundred or so dollars. I made a little leeway for myself. All shopping was done online at www.tigerdirect.com. I know that I can find cheaper deals around town as well as I know that it’s more expensive around town, so the price is adjustable. Hopefully not to much though! So given that … I have an extra 300ish$ a paycheck. I need 100 – 150$ to survive. So I am setting goals. Watching every penny I spend and debating wether I need it or not. My goal is 2 months tops. Who knows … more or less I don’t know but we’ll see. I originally planned on purchasing a part a paycheck. However I quickly decieded against that.
Why?
Lots of reasons. Life has many unexpected turn of events. Such as 170$ in a water bill etc that was totally not in my budget. So I had to make due … I did and I got by because I’m careful with my money. However I like to spend alot of money on food. Hehe, I like food. No I’m not fat, I still am at a constant 135 in weight. so there 
What I’ve decieded to do is watch every penny and with an act of god, good will to actually do this I will save aside each paycheck. Who knows … in a month down the line I may or may not even want to do this. Who knows!
Well I should be going now. I’ve alloted myself 3.45$ for a BK breakfeast 
hehe … uh oh. I’m not quite sure how this will go .. wish me luck! I feel like I’m going on a diet. I need alot of self-motivation and lots of support from people around me! Hehe .. anywho … take care for now.
kc
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