So it’s 1:30 am and I’ve sincerly tried to sleep since about 12:30. It’s just not happening. I’m tossing and turning and I just can’t sleep. I’m not even to entirely sure why. Is it because I slept so much today already or no? I don’t know. So my day was fairly boring. Went to eat at burger king. Rented swat the movie, I have these free rental coupons for purchasing my gameboy so I’ve been renting free movies rather then purchasing them. And then I cleaned actually quite a bit. Jo assisted me in this. Which is a good thing becuase all who know me know that I don’t clean very well. Dishes, laundry, bathroom, bedroom, living and the such. All very much clean. However I’m still lacking in some cleaning areas however for the most part I’m actually happy with all the things that I’ve done the past few days.

I went to get my taxes filed. However I end up not doing it due to multiple reasons. I suppose it was the depressing response I got back. Before I delve to much into it I figured I would point out the obvious. Last year at tax time I got about 400 dollars back for working only about 3 months at my current position. So stupid me, and nieve to, I went in thinking, HEY, if I worked 3 months and got 400 dollars back … multiply that by 4 because I’ve now worked there 12 months, that’s almost 2,000 dollars back! Wrong. I made to much. Meaning that I’m now in a diffrent tax bracket and when I heard the lady say, "Well you may even end up owing money back!" I wanted to reach across the table and tell the woman NO STINKING WAY!!! I did regain my composure and decieded to hold off on things. Cool my nerves. I was severly dissapointed. I don’t know. I always expect to much. And usually I think so negatively that I’m prepared, however it’s the times that I don’t prepare is when it puts a big lump in my throat. So I’m thinking on how I can make this positive. Nothing coming …. I did however find out that there is a HOPE fund set aside by the IRS that would allow 1,500 dollars your first year and a 1000 for every year that follows to get tax breaks … so I will relay that on to my parents as soon as they call me back! Good news right? But anywho … the lady proceeded on to tell me she made a mistake in the math and in all actuality I would be getting about 400 back. Not bad not bad. Definetly not 2000 but hey, I’ll live. Why you ask?!

I don’t know. Is it because things are going so well? Life is good. I’m not depressed about my job anymore. I could care less about that actually. It’s a paycheck and I actually do enjoy my fellow employees. Annual review time is coming within the next month or so, I should be expecting a .50 pay raise and a promotion perhaps? All is speculation however I will definetly not get my hopes up. I am currently following a few job leads in the software engineering side of things though. It is looking alot better. The past six months I have seen a considerably noticable increase in the jobs in this field. Even rumors going around that a fairly large company is going to be hiring approximatly 2000 programmers. Who knows. I dont’ care. Everything is absolutley great. I have a family that is there for me. Parents and especially my sister. She is awesome. Everytime I’m in a rut she’s there. I don’t speak to her nearly enough. I hope she understands. I’m sure she does. I hope she does. She’s accomplished so much. I’m completly envious. She’s completly detached 110% from home for quite some time now. I long for that. I want that. No family ties. Meaning financially at least. I love my parents. They too have always been there for me. I still call them every week, and I usually feel as if there is a pit at the bottom of my stomach when I don’t call them. I love hearing what they’ve been up to, how happy everybody seems, how my puppies are doing and everything! I have such a great support system it’s incredible. I never thought this way until the past few months. But wow. I do. And I’m so lucky.

My social life is outstanding as well. I work, eat, sleep, watch movies with people that I care about. I don’t think I have one problem in that area. My roomates for once I actually enjoy being around. Each and every one of them, 3 total. We watch movies hang out. I really like knowing that if I want to be alone I can, or if I want some company I can have as little or as much as I want. I do like roomates.

I am always busy. Wether it be watching movies, with jo, with roomates, at school or work or what have you. I love this. I love every aspect of it.

School … wow … what can I say about school. This is my first term where I havn’t been bored to tears, I love what I do and everything that I’ve learned. This is the real deal. I do love, in one way or another … all of my classes. The only thing is it’s so early in the morning! UGH!!

Speaking of which … school starts in five hours. I wonder if I will be sleepy? Who knows … but I do know that life is great right now, and has been for quite some time now. I am truly happy and it gives me goosebumps just thinking about all of this. All that has transpired in my life. Just everything. It’s like a huge story unfolding that has a happy ending. I have found my never never land and it’s something I for once embrace, and am happy.

I do apologize for not writing anything earlier. However life has kept me busy. Hopefully you will continue to come back and see what life has in store for me. But before I go … I must ask. Have you updated your journal latley? If not I would highly recommend it!

Take Care all!
theMayor