Ok, so I’m a little late .. I apologize. I’ve been rather busy. V-Day went perfectly for me! I don’t think I’ve had such a great time with anybody then I did on V-Day. I still hate that day though. I’ve determined that up until this year it’s been somewhat of a horrible experience. This year however changed. I don’t know how to explain it. I don’t even think I need to. It was a good day.

These past 6 months of mine have been great. Just with everything. School, work, jo, family friends … just overall I think everybody is in good spirits right now. I’m not quite sure why either. Honestly I don’t care. I think I am being blessed. By whom or what I don’t know. I usually find myself blaming negative things on GOD, so maybe now that things are right in my life I should seek him for a thank you. I’m sure god reads journals so if he does, thank you god.

Hehe..

Anywho … As usuall sitting on my warm comfy bed not able to sleep. My fishtank right now is the only light in the room. It’s pretty relaxing. It’s hard to beileve my new tank has been up now for nearly two months! I havn’t had to clean it however I have been buying filters for it. It’s good to know that I don’t have to clean it as often as I did. I’ve not yet cleaned it, 3 filters and 2 months later it looks as if I poured fresh new water in the tank. No gunk, no anything. Crystal clear … All of my fish are doing well. In fact they are gobbling up their pellets. I wish I were a fish .. but right now I’m glad I’m me.

Err .. or maybe not! I have to wake up in six and half hours. Not good. I’m sure I’ll survive though. Tommorow is friday! BOOM BABY!

So today has been a rather intresting day. I don’t even know how to begin to describe it. So I wake up. Full intent on going to school today but as I usually do, franticallly looking around for my car keys. Yes fanclub .. I still loose my keys on a daily basis. Before I go more into detail, one of my teachers who has taught me alot, and is quite comical and makes me laugh, pee my pants on a daily basis told us stories on how he used to buy a car washing bucket for 99 cents, and at the end of the day, have his bucket sitting on his table and empty his pockets into the bucket. That way he wouldn’t loose anything. Good idea, stupid to me at the time, however as each day passes I am actually looking into it. Anywho .. looking and looking, approaching crucial time zone. The crucial time zone is the absolute latest you can leave to reach a destination when traffic is perfect. Of course murphy’s law still applies. I locked my keys in my car.

OUCH…. BIG OUCH.

No big deal, 9 out of 10 times I have a spare in my wallet. Took the spare out about a month ago and now it’s no where in sight. Looking frantically I’ve already missed both of my classes, I’m searching, searching … frantically searching to find my spare key. No luck. Bummer dude. As a gleaming hint of hope I remember something. My one and only jo! –Plays super hero music in the background– I remember I let her have a spare key to my car because I let her get something out of my trunk one day, or something like that … anywho. I call her up. I honestly didn’t think she had it.

Why you ask?

Her purse was stolen a few weeks back. She came over at about midnight one night crying. My hear broke. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so bad for somebody ever. Well obvious there are a few cases, but seeing her cry was heartbreaking. Of course it didn’t help it took her a while to tell me what was the matter. Ugh. Crushed. That’s what I felt that night. It was horrendous. I wanted right then and there just to be there for her. It’s so hard, I’m not used of those kind of "be there for me" kind of things. It was rough. But somehow we ended up watching movies until very late at night and I remember walking back to the car hoping that I had made her feel better.

I don’t know why I side track. Honestly I don’t.

Anywho … her keys were in her purse so I thought that my spare was taken as well! No hope for me! But sure enough by a stroke of luck and chance she had my key. So what’s my agenda next tuesday and/or wensday you ask? (those days by the way are my days off!) To make 1billion spare copies of my keys! hehe… ok not that much but one or two. One extra for me and also for my trusting roomate. They all feel the same. So we all are going on a spare key makign pow-wow. Hehe … it will be fun.

So I’m just sitting here on my bed. Watching my fish tank. Reflecting back on my day like I’ve done countless times in the past. Today especially seemed to go by fast. My days usually do. I’m not sure why either .. they just do.

I’m getting pretty excited on my savings for my computer. As everyday that I save the cheaper I find items across the internet. It’s a good feeling. It really is. I don’t think, other then a few cases, that I’ve wanted to save for something so badly. By now I could have easily spent 100$ on stupid stuff. Not wasting it… just stuff that I don’t need. I’m going bare bones right now. Food is still good … just not in so much quantities. Downsizing everything basically. However it’s not downsizing, it’s making use of every single asset that I have. It’s a good feeling too. I’ve never had in my eyes such a worthy cause, one that I will suceed in. It’s only been a week and 33 dollars later. Wow, good stuff. I’m saving like a mad man! Hehe….

So as of Feb 14th it will be me and jo’s first valentines day. I feel horrible because I work at ungodly hours during the day so I can’t take her anywhere nice. Denny’s or I-Hop. I suppose it could be semi-romantic. Seeing as its where she wanted to go for our first date. Lol, I feel like such a horrible boyfriend. I’m not entirely sure what to even get her. She doesn’t want anything. I know she does but she’s just being a woman, but WHAT!!

THINK kc THINK!

Yea, that about sums it up. My days, weeks, months are just flying by. They say time flies when your having fun however I’ve somewhere along the line missed the "fun" part.
Grrr … I put "fun" in italics however my code is built to resist the urge to put in html tags, I have a bad habbit of changing font color and not setting the end tag I’m lazy … what can I say?

Anywho … Where was I? Oh yes … fun. I’ve somehow missed the fun train. So .. Your probably wondering what’s new with me and what I’ve been up to? Oh yes … the awaited question.

Not alot.

Surprised .. shouldn’t be. I work, sleep, eat, and do this all over again. However you would be happy to hear that my OzweegoVille is coming along nicely. I’ve not uploaded all of it. My newer version looks simliar to this however it’s got more content and such. It’s actually pretty neat. Like I said before, I’m developing code that allows me to dynamically update everything. Tutorials, website forums, newsletter the whole nine yards. It just takes time. I don’t have quite as much free time as I used to.

Me and my roomate were discussing how time flies. Hard to beileve I’ve been in denver almost two years. Hard to beileve this year I will be 20. Uggh. As I clear this massive lump growing in the back of my throat. 20?! Hard to beileve I’ve had my braces off for 7 months. Hard to beileve that I’ve worked at my current job for 1 year and a few months. Hard to beileve me and jo have been dating now for 6 months. Hard to beileve alot of things. I honestly don’t feel mature enough to handle all of this. I honestly don’t. I think the only reassurance I have is that everybody feels this way, or at least that’s how it is portrayed to me. I wish they developed a manuel for this kind of stuff. This game of life. I figure I’m ahead, probably ahead of most, however it doesn’t feel that way. Not at all. But I couldn’t ask for anything better. I honestly couldn’t. I would hope this errie gut feeling I have would decipate however I’m not quite sure how long this will last. I figure, or at least hope, that everybody goes through this once in their life. I think this is mine.

But how can this be so? I’ve already had my mid-life crises! I was a young kid in the hospital. Not again. However I wouldn’t quite call this a mid-life crises, moreless somebody took away my map. My guidance, my direction …

I’m sure in time I’ll find my footing and my place. For right now how confused I am with myself, and how I am holding up in society. I honestly couldn’t be happier. I think things for the most part have turned out excellent. For better or for worse … right now, life is good.

Anywho … I’m done rambling .. venting or releasing. Whatever you wish to call this.

I am not quite finished talking, err typing rather though! I’ve set goals. First let me tell you what I had originally planned. I originally planned to pay off my current laptop, and purchase another, highly sophisticated laptop. A golden gem that would put me ahead a few years. Right now my laptop is perfect however things that I need to now it’s somewhat lacking. Ok, let me rephrase. I am somewhat ignorant when it comes to upgrading laptops. So I was going to purchase a new one. I’ve since then decieded completly diffrent. I’m glad I’ve come up with yet another solution. This solution is far more affordable and offers far more advantages in the future, no just today. I am going to build my own! I bought a 30$ book .. read it throughouly, and also have had previous knowledge of internal components and realised .. wow… this is incredibly easy, I would have to pay only me for assembly and of course I pick the parts that I want! Total – the monitor (which I havn’t quite decieded if or what I will get) the total price for a computer that I estimated at dell was approximatly 3000$ I can build myself for 600$. Of course that is give or take a hundred or so dollars. I made a little leeway for myself. All shopping was done online at www.tigerdirect.com. I know that I can find cheaper deals around town as well as I know that it’s more expensive around town, so the price is adjustable. Hopefully not to much though! So given that … I have an extra 300ish$ a paycheck. I need 100 – 150$ to survive. So I am setting goals. Watching every penny I spend and debating wether I need it or not. My goal is 2 months tops. Who knows … more or less I don’t know but we’ll see. I originally planned on purchasing a part a paycheck. However I quickly decieded against that.

Why?

Lots of reasons. Life has many unexpected turn of events. Such as 170$ in a water bill etc that was totally not in my budget. So I had to make due … I did and I got by because I’m careful with my money. However I like to spend alot of money on food. Hehe, I like food. No I’m not fat, I still am at a constant 135 in weight. so there

What I’ve decieded to do is watch every penny and with an act of god, good will to actually do this I will save aside each paycheck. Who knows … in a month down the line I may or may not even want to do this. Who knows!

Well I should be going now. I’ve alloted myself 3.45$ for a BK breakfeast

hehe … uh oh. I’m not quite sure how this will go .. wish me luck! I feel like I’m going on a diet. I need alot of self-motivation and lots of support from people around me! Hehe .. anywho … take care for now.

kc

So it’s 1:30 am and I’ve sincerly tried to sleep since about 12:30. It’s just not happening. I’m tossing and turning and I just can’t sleep. I’m not even to entirely sure why. Is it because I slept so much today already or no? I don’t know. So my day was fairly boring. Went to eat at burger king. Rented swat the movie, I have these free rental coupons for purchasing my gameboy so I’ve been renting free movies rather then purchasing them. And then I cleaned actually quite a bit. Jo assisted me in this. Which is a good thing becuase all who know me know that I don’t clean very well. Dishes, laundry, bathroom, bedroom, living and the such. All very much clean. However I’m still lacking in some cleaning areas however for the most part I’m actually happy with all the things that I’ve done the past few days.

I went to get my taxes filed. However I end up not doing it due to multiple reasons. I suppose it was the depressing response I got back. Before I delve to much into it I figured I would point out the obvious. Last year at tax time I got about 400 dollars back for working only about 3 months at my current position. So stupid me, and nieve to, I went in thinking, HEY, if I worked 3 months and got 400 dollars back … multiply that by 4 because I’ve now worked there 12 months, that’s almost 2,000 dollars back! Wrong. I made to much. Meaning that I’m now in a diffrent tax bracket and when I heard the lady say, "Well you may even end up owing money back!" I wanted to reach across the table and tell the woman NO STINKING WAY!!! I did regain my composure and decieded to hold off on things. Cool my nerves. I was severly dissapointed. I don’t know. I always expect to much. And usually I think so negatively that I’m prepared, however it’s the times that I don’t prepare is when it puts a big lump in my throat. So I’m thinking on how I can make this positive. Nothing coming …. I did however find out that there is a HOPE fund set aside by the IRS that would allow 1,500 dollars your first year and a 1000 for every year that follows to get tax breaks … so I will relay that on to my parents as soon as they call me back! Good news right? But anywho … the lady proceeded on to tell me she made a mistake in the math and in all actuality I would be getting about 400 back. Not bad not bad. Definetly not 2000 but hey, I’ll live. Why you ask?!

I don’t know. Is it because things are going so well? Life is good. I’m not depressed about my job anymore. I could care less about that actually. It’s a paycheck and I actually do enjoy my fellow employees. Annual review time is coming within the next month or so, I should be expecting a .50 pay raise and a promotion perhaps? All is speculation however I will definetly not get my hopes up. I am currently following a few job leads in the software engineering side of things though. It is looking alot better. The past six months I have seen a considerably noticable increase in the jobs in this field. Even rumors going around that a fairly large company is going to be hiring approximatly 2000 programmers. Who knows. I dont’ care. Everything is absolutley great. I have a family that is there for me. Parents and especially my sister. She is awesome. Everytime I’m in a rut she’s there. I don’t speak to her nearly enough. I hope she understands. I’m sure she does. I hope she does. She’s accomplished so much. I’m completly envious. She’s completly detached 110% from home for quite some time now. I long for that. I want that. No family ties. Meaning financially at least. I love my parents. They too have always been there for me. I still call them every week, and I usually feel as if there is a pit at the bottom of my stomach when I don’t call them. I love hearing what they’ve been up to, how happy everybody seems, how my puppies are doing and everything! I have such a great support system it’s incredible. I never thought this way until the past few months. But wow. I do. And I’m so lucky.

My social life is outstanding as well. I work, eat, sleep, watch movies with people that I care about. I don’t think I have one problem in that area. My roomates for once I actually enjoy being around. Each and every one of them, 3 total. We watch movies hang out. I really like knowing that if I want to be alone I can, or if I want some company I can have as little or as much as I want. I do like roomates.

I am always busy. Wether it be watching movies, with jo, with roomates, at school or work or what have you. I love this. I love every aspect of it.

School … wow … what can I say about school. This is my first term where I havn’t been bored to tears, I love what I do and everything that I’ve learned. This is the real deal. I do love, in one way or another … all of my classes. The only thing is it’s so early in the morning! UGH!!

Speaking of which … school starts in five hours. I wonder if I will be sleepy? Who knows … but I do know that life is great right now, and has been for quite some time now. I am truly happy and it gives me goosebumps just thinking about all of this. All that has transpired in my life. Just everything. It’s like a huge story unfolding that has a happy ending. I have found my never never land and it’s something I for once embrace, and am happy.

I do apologize for not writing anything earlier. However life has kept me busy. Hopefully you will continue to come back and see what life has in store for me. But before I go … I must ask. Have you updated your journal latley? If not I would highly recommend it!

Take Care all!
theMayor