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Yes, that has caused me to overload my hotmail account. Over 300 messages becuase It was in what we call a snoopy loop. An infinate loop, an overabundance of my journal entries ….

Anyways
As for my website, I actually like it. It’s nice and peppy. I suppose things are going peppy. As for work, Im not sure when or if I’ll ever go part time. I hope so. It would be so nice to get out of work at eight oclock each night. Who knows.. I’m going to have to wait and see. Surprisingly my relationship with the person that holds the pieces of my broken heart is going well. She’s obviously still has her heart captivated by somebody else .. but that’s ok, I suppose in time she will hopefully realise her worth to me. Nothing hurts worse then to have her tell me she feels worthless. I suppose I am being selfish, but it makes me realise everything I did, was for nothing. That is why I feel so hesistant as to try again, will she actually know this time? Will she actually feel the same? Or will the situation repeat itself and I be the loser in which holds his own heart in his hands. Crushed. I am so afraid. I don’t know. One thing I do know is that by december something has to change, something has to give. And if it doesn’t … then I’ll know. I can then move on. I said that to myself once, but I beileve second chances are golden. If not for second chances, I would be dead right now. Maybe one day things will be right with us. Nobody knows until then. Not even I, although I wish I did. I wish I did.
Adios,
Mayor of OzweegoVille