Well, with all that has transpired over the last few days, overall I’m fairly happy. I suppose with my last journal entry I didn’t think at all.. I apologize. Anyways, no matter(beileve me, it’s eating me alive) but I’ve realised the truth and was is to be. I’ve been doing everything to keep my mind busy, making the time go by as fast as possible, trying to limit my thinking patterns. Mainly watching movies, working, reading and listening to music. I thank my hated god for music. Only thing that keeps my brain ticking, and my heart beating.
I also realise there is a god. Just not one in I want to cheer or applaud. Right now he sits, and mocks me. Everybody told me that my life’s plan was to have cancer. That’s bogus. Among many other things. One thing is for sure though, I’m going home tommorow.
It’s very much needed, I spoke with my dogs over the phone and they seemed to perk up when they heard me. I’m pretty excited. Home is the only place where I’m worth something and that every body, parents include, as well as the animals understand me. I’m no doctor dolittle(sp?) but I think the bond between animals and humans are pretty spectacular. anyways, one hand i’m happy, the other hand depressed. Sinking further and further down, and yet, the other half, rising for the momentous(sp?) journey home. I’m going to stop in clovis, hopefully say hi to ms zamie, hopefully school is not out, go to dairyqueen alone, eat some of my beloved ice cream, in which I told myself I wouldn’t eat any, but hell, the ocassion calls for it. Take me a walk around green acres park, maybe go fishing for a half hour or so and bring betsie around the town. Clovis… so boring, yet my home. Actually lubbock is… but anywho. Whatever works right? I can’t wait. I can’t wait I can’t wait. I know it’ll be done and over with before I know it, but if only tonight would go by faster, it’d make my day. Anyways, I’ll try to write more in clovis, and if I don’t, it means that betsie broke down, or betsie crashed, or that betsie failed me. But I wouldn’t worry about that, betsie has never failed me. She’s the only female other than my mother that I trust. See you on the other side.

The Mayor

:.life.sucks.buy a helmet:

Well, I found out some iffy news today. The lady I supposidly had feelings for, errr… doesn’t. I found out from a friend or two in clovis that she apparently has another intrest. I dont know what to think. On one hand, I’m royally pissed. I didn’t go out with somebody out else becuase of my feelings. On the other hand, in the words of austin powers "Wait a tick, that means I’m single! Yea baby!", hehe, even though I was never really dating her. She supposidly wanted to wait while she made use of her life, or become a doctor or something, not that I’m doubting her abilities, but it’s funny. I am making it now more then ever. I make about 25k a year, which for a college guy is alot! I am fully independant and on top of that, i’m hoping that i’ll find an internship somewhere in computer programming, making even more dough.

It made me take into consideration as to what exactly I have to offer the opposite sex. Then, coming from the opposite sex I found what I have to offer. I’m a gentleman, smart, outgoing and I’m a more passive then other guys. I don’t beat on women, I don’t do drugs or fool around, making me less of a man, but more of a gentleman. Anyways, I’m glad it worked out like this I suppose.. I have so much going for me, so much. I havn’t confronted her about it, but I don’t think there is to much reason too. We havn’t spoken to in forever, and whenever I’m on, she’s out with him, or when shes on, I try to get out and have fun with my friends or I’m at work. Oh boy… the curse. I swear, I’m doomed, or at least until I turn 21 hehe…

For a crappy day that today is… Im actually not to terribly depressed. Betsie is still outside, waiting for me like usual, my music is blaring, and I’m in good companey right now… speaking of which, I had better get back to them….
Catch you laterZ citezens of ozweegoville, home of whatever the heck you want it to be

peace out
kc

Hey faithful fanclub!
Guess what, I got my days off of work approved! So what does that mean, DUH! I’M GOING HOME!!!! Yipppieeeee!!!! Anyways, I keep invisioning myself driving home, the seven eight hour drive… just to get to clovis, and then home, my new home in lubbock. Where I can cuddle with my pups and visit with my folks, and also eat a good, HUMONGOUS, meal! oh man, I am so excited… if you can’t already tell…

Anyways, it’s going to be weird going back to clovis, which isn’t my home… I will hopefully be leaving at approximatly six or seven in the morning, getting to clovis in less than eight hours? hopefully.. hehe… anyways, i’m stoked. the funny part is my parents don’t know yet… I havn’t been able to tell them!

anyways, laterZ

the mayor

That’s what I’ll keep telling myself. One more day. I’m so tired right now. It feels very weird. With school, and my last shift at work, everything is weird now. Like Friday, which was normally like my saturday, it’s only my wensday! I get monday’s and tuesdays off which is going to be great this week. Apparrently my roomate is going to be getting his car pretty soon. So hopefully he can drive himself to work and home, and also on my days off, I don’t have to spend an extra ten bucks on gas just brining him back and fourth. anyways… life is slow, but incredibly fast if that makes any sense. I’m going on my fourth term. Which is nice… almost done hehe.. yea right… I have probably 4 or 5 left, so yea, I’m getting there…. Well, i’m tired, and hopefully me and my roomates will play starcraft like we usually do on the weekends…

laterZ
Mayor of OzweegoVille – peace