Even after all that I’ve been through up until now in this so called life, I’m pretty scared. I’ve been in remission for about 5 years now, and it haunts me everyday. Rodney carrington said "I’m a hypocondriac(sp?) I stubb my toe, I got cancer!" Anyways, that’s life. day in and day out. It’s far worse, especially after today. This guy I work with about the same age as me, I just found out me and him both experienced cancer at a young age. He had his six month checkup and he thinks he may have it again. Again, boy, again is a great word. I’m in love again. I’m working again, I’m eating again, again… but I have cancer again? That bites. I think Im not mentally strong enough to go through another bout with cancer. I think I’d collapse at the thought of it. I don’t know, I have a weird way of surprising even myself, I just hope I’ll never have to find out. But anyways, another subject came up,that I don’t really want to talk about. It’ll just make me express self pity on myself and that’s not what I need right now. Doubt. Everybody doubts themselves at one time in life, some more than others. But if today’s lesson taught me anything, never doubt what you do and what you’ve done because when the same obstical(sp?) is brought forth to you, whether you made the right or wrong choice, there will always be a next time. And next time is when opportunity arises.
Until later citezens of OzweegoVille
Peace
~Mayor of OzweegoVille~
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