Well,
I think for the most part ozweegoville is fully functional. Minus the Guestbook, photo gallery, betsie, and one or two other links.

But as of right now, I am so incredibly exhuasted. I had to pick my roomate up from work today, plus bring another roomate to school today. He was running a tad bit late to school becuase his car wouldn’t start. Which I’m always happy to try and help out.

Today I bought the sword of shannara. It’s a book written by terry brooks. I read it once a while back in highschool. It was a good point in life. I’m trying to do everything that brought me back to the point in life where I, ME was most happiest. With the shoes, the books, movies…. even my whole lifestyle. I want it to slowly intergate into what it once was, and not what it IS. Not that I don’t like it now, I just don’t seem as happy or perky. Anyways, it feels great, one day left off! Which I should be sleeping soon…. I need my beauty sleep.

Anyways, if I havn’t welcomed you to the new site, or ozweegoville….

Welcome to OzweegoVille
~mayor of ozweegoville~

Well, today I must admit was a good day. Today now five am in the morning is my friday! Anyways, the past previous days have been pretty much crappy for me. Financially, socially and emotionally wise for me. Just horrible. So I thought i’d bring it back to good, oldschool style. I’ve needed to purchase some shoes now for the past few weeks. I’ve had my eyes on these adidas classics. Pretty nice shoes, but when I tried them on they just diddn’t seem right. And on top of that they were going ot be like sixty or seventy bucks. Obviously I was willing to spend that much, but with sacrifices to other causes. So I decided to look around. And out of the blue on sale for 37 bucks was a size 11 pair of ozweego’s. AWESOME, just awesome. I decided to purchase them. Well, once I did, I lost my keys, so my good luck keychain i’ve had with me throughout my hospital years, gone… all gone. But that’s ok. The feeling I got once I found these shoes was that of complete awe. It was so neat, I lost me beloved keys/key chain, but yet it was a great day. I cannot describe it. Anyways, I remember most about my day was looking up at the sky to god "you keep on laughing". This isn’t going to phase me. Not like it would previously, not becuase it’s not important to me, but becuase I’ve been through worse. I got my ozweego’s, now it’s back like the old school days, when I had that special lady in my life, home cooked meals, where it was just me and betsie for al time. No worries. No more worries…

Well,
I am getting pretty excited with the new and upcoming website, I am really impressed with myself of the new layouts/graphics and user interface. It made sense to me, although I have a feeling some of you who are technically inclinded or declined or challenged are going to have a rough time. But that’s ok, some of the site is pretty simplistic. Not due to lazyness, or time but for the people mentioned above. I’ve been working pretty steadily on my days off or whenever I try to relax. coding helps me to relax believe it or not. Making my brain work for some reasons help me relax as well.

Well as the subject says, I’m ready for my nap. It’s midnight. I’m ready for bed. Normally people would call that sleep. But for me the last four months they’ve been naps. No real sleep. No real slumber. Just naps. Cat naps. A way to survive. Which is ok. I’m alive. That’s all that counts. Give me a week or two, my site will be up fully functional, well.. except of course the search engine. That is going to be alot of fun to code. I am trying to make one file, where anybody can drop it into a folder, and it searches every file without entering file names. Well I hope you all have a nice time, bear with me, the new site is coming… Oh, it’s coming ….
kc

Hey all,
I suppose now more then ever I need ozweegoville. The only place that I feel accepted. The only place where I am admired, and perhaps the only place where I might find that special somebody in my life. I suppose that is just something that happens to you when you see a million and one happy couples walking past you in the streets. For this reminds me of valentines day. Probably one of the most greatest and hated holidays in all of america. The world for that matter. Where you either have that special somebody in your life and you are as happy as can be, or lonley, wishing that the day was over, and the day would soon come where you’d never have to see it ever again.

I think this year, more so than past years, it hurts me the most. I’ve tackled so many things in life, from denying death, to living out on my own, full time job and full time school, to dealing with life’s everyday challenges. I realise I’m young, probably neive for thinking of such thoughts, but my happiest moments in life come to me when I am sharing it with somebody else.

I don’t know, maybe I’m jealous. At the movie theatre’s I see them holding hands,at the mall I see them shopping together, purchasing groceries, washing their car’s together, just thinking about sitting down one night watching a good movie together. Taking a nice long walk around the pond, or buying ice cream talking about the day. All of which make me terribly depressed and saddened and more importantly, ever so lonley.

On the same hand I realise how much I have going for me right now. I realise I am only 18 and before I am 20 I will have an associates in computer programming, have lived and survived college life, single life, and denied death due to cancer. Far more than most young gentleman my age have done. I have so much going for me, and to realise that by brining somebody into my life would be a huge mistake. Not until I am at the top of my game. Not until I am where I want to be as a person shall I let somebody into my life.

I try to keep telling myself this, although nothing really seems to help. It’s a never ending, horrible nightmare in which I want to escape everday. Everyday. Some more so than others, and maybe for a split second, I do want that special lady to share my life with, Just not right now, but on the same hand I am driving myself crazy telling myself that.

Sometimes I hate life for all of it’s trials and tribulations. On the same hand I realise that life has so much more to offer if I only open my eyes, and see beyond all of which is brought forth to me. I suppose I am being very silly in this matter. You probably think I am weird, and that’s fine. Think as you wish, for that’s why I created OzweegoVille, for me and me only. Well, let me rephrase that. For me and Betsie only.

The other day I got betsie out of the auto body shop. They did an excellent job on her. I was so depressed the days without her. As if somebody ripped my heart out and fed it to the lions. And as the lions were feasting, god was laughing at me as he usually does. It’s not uncommon anymore for me to be depressed and hear laughing in the background. Sometimes I think life is punishment for my previous lives, sometimes I feel life is great and couldn’t be any better.

I don’t know, maybe I should see a doctor for my bi-polarisim. Anywyas, just know betsie is my life, for the time being, then comes school… which hopefully will turn me into a respectable, well though of gentleman that I am not now.

kc

Ps, ozweegoville is coming, oh it’s coming…..

Yes.. that was my topic for my third argumenative essay for my english class. I am really getting tired of all these essays that we have to write. It seems so repetative. Why this is better than that… ect… Why this is better than that… now that I think about it, I could think of alot of topic that I could write about. I suppose betsie would be a topic.

Anyways…

Not a whole lot is new. Still pretty bummed about my whole job. Getting broke up with my pod, it just royally stinks. I don’t think anybody else is too worried about it. Maybe it’s just me. I don’t want to move, I hate change. I hate every aspect of change. I suppose I dont want to meet anybody new. Or the fact that I’ll have a diffrent schedule. GRrrr… I don’t need to think about this anymore…

I have a stupid essay due tommorow as well as a group project due tommorow. It’s so stupid… but I do love my programming classes. I’ve learned so much latley, and yes.. for those of you that don’t know, or did I not tell I clepped out of my HTML class.. how on god’s green earth I passed it, I don’t know.. but I passed

Well, I am going to scrape the ice off my betsie, and then go to bed. Maybe shower. Cry myself to sleep or sing at the top of my lungs singing to good music… one of the two, I don’t care. I dont care for much anymore…..

Take care
~Mayor of OzweegoVille~