Well, let me just describe my christmas… well… lets go back even farther. Thanksgiving day, alone, all alone. Meal = Cream cheese beagel. Now lets get into the present with christmas. All alone, no change there, except Meal = New england clam chowder AND I also had to work today. So yea, after just explained that, you must be thinking that my life sucks.. well.. on the contrary. I actually like my life so there 
anyways, it is really depressing knowing that I am by myself for christmas, but there is really nothing that I can do about it. My babe betsie was here for me as usual. What would I do without her? I don’t even want to imagine what I’d do if I lost her.. anyways.. today’s christmas and it sucked. Everybody is with their loved ones, eating a huge meal, opening up a ton of gifts, and being with their loved ones. Did I mention being with their loved ones? I was debating wether or not I would write about how for one day the world just freezes, two months prior to this day the world is in total chaos, and the day after, the world is completly normal as if nothing ever happened. Or I was debating wether or not to write about how crappy my life was for this particular day and how great it was for any non-holiday, so it’s obvious that you can see where this is going…
::Status check::
I think for the most part things are going exceptionally well. I mean, I love my job, for the most part, I get paid great, I have the greatest car in the world, my handy dandy laptop, a college education, food on my plate, I think I look alot better than I did six months ago, people finally appreciate me, I am respected I am living out on my own, I have a great handle on life although it may not seem like it, I have this awesome chair that I am relaxing in right now, I knowhwere i’ve been in life, i know where i’m going to be in life, oh yea…. I just barley turned 18. I think even my parents are a little more impressed then they thought they’d be. Every day I wake up I say to myself "I’m making it!!" I don’t think me, or anybody around me thought I would make it, let alone this far. So it’s a warm fuzzy feeling inside. your probably asking why I brought this up. Well, I brought this up becuase I recieved a few awesome christmas gifts, but I havn’t recieved two yet. One of which is I hope this feeling, this attitude that I can make it lasts for ever, and the second one is that I wish that special somebody would come along. So santa, rudolph or who ever makes christmas wishes come true, please, purty please make mine come true. well, everybody, I suppose I am going to curl up in a ball, and watch a humerous movie or cry myself to sleep.
Merry Christmas
~Casey Merrill~
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