I figure if someone is to determine who they really are, today would definetly be that day. I can’t explain, nor deny it. It feels a little awkward but mostly good. I don’t know, I suppose i’m rambling… on to other things. Today I realised how badly I need and want a second job. Not only can I NOT life off one job for more than 3 months, I can’t even comprehend what it would be like If I had to sit around the house the entire day. It’s a mess, a wreck, worse, ten times worse then if a train/hurrican/semi-truck ran straight through it. But hey, I’m just one of 3 others, I cannot voice my opinion, which is fine by me, I shall live in solitude for the rest of my life, in my cold dark room, with only myself and my books. Ok, maybe not that bad but hey, it’s school work, eat and sleep. That’s the name of the game right? I once remembered I couldn’t wait to move to denver. Meet new people, you know the cool guys and the buetiful ladies well, all that is done and past, and now I long for the day where I have a halfway decent job where I can be myself, in my own home, with me and betsie, and not have to worry about much. I mean, I’d like to worry about some things, but not all of this life jumble. Speaking of jumble, that’s all this journal entry is is jumble, but hey, it’s special jumble, it’s kc’s jumble Well, I’ll leave my jumble to that.
take care

kc

I don’t know what to say for this entry. Quite frankly I’m at a lost for words actually. My sister ended up not coming home, which has made my trip that much worse, among other things, but hey, i’m only human and can only do and accomplish so much. My time here has been like a roller coaster. So happy one minute, complete opposite the next. but I suppose that’s life in general. MOnday I go back to denver, my land of opportunity, hopefully things in denver havn’t changed as much as they have here. So much has changed. Could it be me? Maybe, I have gotten alot of compliments since I’ve been home on how much better my appearence is. I lost 20 pounds and probabley gained all of it in confidence. Which may make me arrogant, but I beileve if you are confident, other people can sense that, more importantly, respect that. Well, dinner is calling me, on of my last few meals before I head back to school. man, so much has changed, so much has changed… Nothing I can do about it, well… except quit typing and go eat. So take care whoever this is…

kc

Yea, this just shows how dynamic my site is

Hey all! I’m home! I actually got home last night, but decided not to get on the internet, just becuase me and my family were having such a good time together. I forgot how much fun I had with my puppies, how much food my parents had accumalated and how good it was to eat a filling meal. They also told me that I lost alot of weight. Fifteen pounds to be exact, but hey, it will make me more attractive to the opposite sex, just as long as I do it tastefully, and I don’t become anerexic(sp?) Anyways, besides the fact that my parents are going crazy about my weight, It has been alot of fun. the drive down was excellent, itwas very very relaxing and gave me time to think, and have some fun. Windows rolled down with my music blaring, the only way to live if you ask me. What else, oh, I got a haircut. Me and my mom went out to get a pair of jeans (it’s getting cold in denver) so we bought some clothes, and then we went out and bought me some good food, all generic brands, but top of the line generic brands Also I am gathering items that remained behind accidently, such as a crapload of my cds. so yea, i’ve been busy. I also went to see ms zamie today. She seemed pretty happy to see me. I’m glad, the feelings were mutual. I miss highschool to a certain degree. I wish people would act more mature, more like their age, and I wished that there were no social standards that we had to abide by. such as the geeks talk to geeks and jocks talk to popular people. That is why I love college so much. As I was explaining to ms zamie, I can walk up to ANYBODY at westwood, and have a good conversation without fear of rejection due to my social status, why? Becuase there is no status, just good hearted people. Lots of buetiful women, intellegant to boot It’s funny, the ladies there are exactly like me in a sense that they are trekkies(sp?), smart and somewhat outgoing, they like to have a good time but they know when enough is enough. All qualities that resemble myself, I think so anyways… but enough about that, I am so going ot live it up, I miss home so much, and in the same sense I miss denver so much, just becuase that is my home. I don’t know, it’s hard to explain. Sometimes I wish I went to some local college or university, that way my parents would be away, but close enough to visit more often. I miss home, and the security of my home, my warm bed, and my puppies at my feet, my birds waking me up in the morning, and this traffic here in clovis, let me tell you it’s horrible compared to denver! :p Man, how I long for the best of both worlds, the city life of denver, and the people here in clovis. but hey…. that’s me being optomistic again…

Hopefully within my stay here in clovis, I will be putting up a new site, I don’t really like this one, it was more less slapped together like all my other ones, and I realise now thhat’s it’s a peice of crap compared to what I am truly capable of.. so hopefully i’ll be working on a new site here, but hey, who knows?

Well, until later, tommorow, I will let yougo, I have alot of stuff I need to accomplish and not alot of time to do it in…

kc

Yeah, the day is finally here! I’m excited, kind of nervous and full of anticipation. I havn’t driven 11 hours by myself, but half way I won’t be alone. Me and my buddy are going down at the same time, except he is going to santafe so I’ll only be alone half way. But yea, i’m excited. I bought some new cd’s for the ride home, some of which, (most actually) I already had, but I bought two new ones lifehouse
blink182
incubus
Default
Matchbox20
Hoobastank
Creed
So it is going to be a fun ride home….. EXCEPT FOR ONE THING….

Betsie is being like her female self and is not letting me play my cd’s. Why? I have no idea, but that’s why I must leave right now and not completly write in the journal, so I can go fix it before my next class starts, after that, I am home free!!!
Take care evrybody
and for once in my life I am actually excited and happy about seeing my ole town of clovis!

kc