Tough day, tough day. I don’t know how to really explain it. I think it’s over. I can’t handle being alone, and she cant handle being spoken for. I don’t know, I really don’t. I’m crazy about her but what is a boy to do? This is already turning out to be a bitter heartache, I’m glad it’s now, then before I got in way to deep. It’s too late for that, but it’s better late then never. I suppose I am still shocked. I can’t beileve this day has come. It has though I feel, maybe I could be mistaken, but what if i’m not?
I think im confused… :: 3.1.2002 Right now things are flying by so quickly I do not know if I have my head on straight. I mean.. some things are clouding my goals. I mean.. that sounds awful but it’s true. Right now I should be thinking about enjoying life, especially as a senior. Except I am not.. I mean.. should I be thinking about college or enjoying life as it passes me by? Today alot of things were put into check, so to speak. I started thinking about what I had previously wanted.. and what I want now. Beileve you me, they are two totally diffrent things. I guess I am confused… I suppose only time will tell… well.. wish me luck 
Take Care, ~kc~
Wether she knows it or not, March 1, 2002 was one of my first journal entries, and as of that day, I do beileve I hinted a little bit of her in it. What my goals were. My goals wern’t to grow up and be rich, it was to have her in my life. I bet if you would read every journal entry after that for the next couple entries you’d get a little hint of her in them. -sighs- I don’t know what happened, nor do I know what I should do. I suppose I’m just hoping that tommorow holds all of my answers….
Until then.. kc out.
kc
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