Well, what can I say, the past few days events have proved me wrong about my life yet again. I thought for sure my life was headed no where. No social life, no work life, yea, straight for rock bottom. My relationships with few special people complitly incenerated. Not a good situation. Then one day, it all changed, well 90% of the situations I just mentioned. Let me explain.

On saturday I went to my last ditch resort, called echostar. All they do is technical support for the dish network systems. I know I know, I’m on the phone again.. anyways, I went in, the same day I got a call back. Monday I went in for an interview, tuesday I got a piss and drug test, and wensday I got the job. This is where it gets good. Listen and pay attention!

I went back to my mall job to tell them my new schedule, and my boss told me that the manager from a shoe store called the "athletes foot" was looking for me, told them he needed an assistant manager, and would liked to have talked with me! Can you beileve it, assistant manager? That was completley awesome! so I get back home, and the phone rings. Guess who it is. Taco bell telling me they have a few job openings and would like to hear from me back. Ok, not the greatest place, but hey, three job opportunities in ONE day? Echostar, 11 bucks an hour, 40 hours a week… athletes foot where I’d be an assistant manager, or taco bell where I could get the greatest food on the planet!!! I accepted the offer at echostar. I start this monday, 40 hours a week. Which is good, 700 dollars a paycheck, but on top of that I will still be working in the mall. So i’m looking at fifty to sixty hours a week. So I’m going to be busy. But that is good, becuase other than about 10 really close friends, I have no social life, so it’s either play video games, get bored, or be bored and make money? So yea, I’m happy. So as a little "Congraulations" gift to myself I bought myself a cheap little fifty dollar digital camera. Not top of the line, but hey, it works, and it is so cool. I’ve been talking to a good friend frito lay shay alot latley with it. It is really weird, hopefully I can get my mom to get on it as well! But anyways, that is wha is going on with me, you asked for it, you got it!
Take Care,
kc

This is just a tester

Not much is going on, well, everything would be going great, except i’m stressing really really badly about finding a job, maybe fast food? who knows… so long.. errr.. or until tommorow.

kc

Tough day, tough day. I don’t know how to really explain it. I think it’s over. I can’t handle being alone, and she cant handle being spoken for. I don’t know, I really don’t. I’m crazy about her but what is a boy to do? This is already turning out to be a bitter heartache, I’m glad it’s now, then before I got in way to deep. It’s too late for that, but it’s better late then never. I suppose I am still shocked. I can’t beileve this day has come. It has though I feel, maybe I could be mistaken, but what if i’m not?

I think im confused… :: 3.1.2002 Right now things are flying by so quickly I do not know if I have my head on straight. I mean.. some things are clouding my goals. I mean.. that sounds awful but it’s true. Right now I should be thinking about enjoying life, especially as a senior. Except I am not.. I mean.. should I be thinking about college or enjoying life as it passes me by? Today alot of things were put into check, so to speak. I started thinking about what I had previously wanted.. and what I want now. Beileve you me, they are two totally diffrent things. I guess I am confused… I suppose only time will tell… well.. wish me luck Take Care, ~kc~

Wether she knows it or not, March 1, 2002 was one of my first journal entries, and as of that day, I do beileve I hinted a little bit of her in it. What my goals were. My goals wern’t to grow up and be rich, it was to have her in my life. I bet if you would read every journal entry after that for the next couple entries you’d get a little hint of her in them. -sighs- I don’t know what happened, nor do I know what I should do. I suppose I’m just hoping that tommorow holds all of my answers….

Until then.. kc out.

kc

Today, as I was typing, working on my new website design, I realised, wow, how much I listen to music, and the diffrent genres of music. right now j-lo is on the radio, "I’m going to be all right" which is a good song. Anyways, I realised how much music has helped me out. I mean, music usually finds you in a good mood, but for me, lifehouse reminds me of a terrible time in my life, for reasons I won’t go into, but anyways… I love how music just bobs your head without even realising it. It’s funny too, the things I listen to know, are the same and at a greater scope then three months ago. I used to listen to souly vh1, then I gradually went to mtv and then to bet. mtv has a huge variety of music, everything from rock, hard rock, alternative rock, randb, hip hop, and rap… all of which I enjoy listening ot now. Also, my roomate got me listening to grunge type music too. Groups like dope, cannibal corpse, disturbed, lost of other weird bands, that although sound weird, are another part of music that defines who I am. Well… anyways.. I need to go.. today has been a pretty good day, just another day with me and my laptop, and betsie… Probably the only two things that enjoy my companey and enjoy me for that matter. And as usual, the feelings are definetly mutual. I need to go, not only are my eyelids closing.. quake is callingme

kc