Well, what can I say, the past few days events have proved me wrong about my life yet again. I thought for sure my life was headed no where. No social life, no work life, yea, straight for rock bottom. My relationships with few special people complitly incenerated. Not a good situation. Then one day, it all changed, well 90% of the situations I just mentioned. Let me explain.On saturday I went to my last ditch resort, called echostar. All they do is technical support for the dish network systems. I know I know, I’m on the phone again.. anyways, I went in, the same day I got a call back. Monday I went in for an interview, tuesday I got a piss and drug test, and wensday I got the job. This is where it gets good. Listen and pay attention!I went back to my mall job to tell them my new schedule, and my boss told me that …

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Not much is going on, well, everything would be going great, except i’m stressing really really badly about finding a job, maybe fast food? who knows… so long.. errr.. or until tommorow.kc

Tough day, tough day. I don’t know how to really explain it. I think it’s over. I can’t handle being alone, and she cant handle being spoken for. I don’t know, I really don’t. I’m crazy about her but what is a boy to do? This is already turning out to be a bitter heartache, I’m glad it’s now, then before I got in way to deep. It’s too late for that, but it’s better late then never. I suppose I am still shocked. I can’t beileve this day has come. It has though I feel, maybe I could be mistaken, but what if i’m not?I think im confused… :: 3.1.2002 Right now things are flying by so quickly I do not know if I have my head on straight. I mean.. some things are clouding my goals. I mean.. that sounds awful but it’s true. Right now I should be thinking about enjoying life, especially as a senior. Except …

Today, as I was typing, working on my new website design, I realised, wow, how much I listen to music, and the diffrent genres of music. right now j-lo is on the radio, "I’m going to be all right" which is a good song. Anyways, I realised how much music has helped me out. I mean, music usually finds you in a good mood, but for me, lifehouse reminds me of a terrible time in my life, for reasons I won’t go into, but anyways… I love how music just bobs your head without even realising it. It’s funny too, the things I listen to know, are the same and at a greater scope then three months ago. I used to listen to souly vh1, then I gradually went to mtv and then to bet. mtv has a huge variety of music, everything from rock, hard rock, alternative rock, randb, hip hop, and rap… all of which I enjoy listening …

I figure if someone is to determine who they really are, today would definetly be that day. I can’t explain, nor deny it. It feels a little awkward but mostly good. I don’t know, I suppose i’m rambling… on to other things. Today I realised how badly I need and want a second job. Not only can I NOT life off one job for more than 3 months, I can’t even comprehend what it would be like If I had to sit around the house the entire day. It’s a mess, a wreck, worse, ten times worse then if a train/hurrican/semi-truck ran straight through it. But hey, I’m just one of 3 others, I cannot voice my opinion, which is fine by me, I shall live in solitude for the rest of my life, in my cold dark room, with only myself and my books. Ok, maybe not that bad but hey, it’s school work, eat and sleep. That’s the …

I don’t know what to say for this entry. Quite frankly I’m at a lost for words actually. My sister ended up not coming home, which has made my trip that much worse, among other things, but hey, i’m only human and can only do and accomplish so much. My time here has been like a roller coaster. So happy one minute, complete opposite the next. but I suppose that’s life in general. MOnday I go back to denver, my land of opportunity, hopefully things in denver havn’t changed as much as they have here. So much has changed. Could it be me? Maybe, I have gotten alot of compliments since I’ve been home on how much better my appearence is. I lost 20 pounds and probabley gained all of it in confidence. Which may make me arrogant, but I beileve if you are confident, other people can sense that, more importantly, respect that. Well, dinner is calling me, on …

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Hey all! I’m home! I actually got home last night, but decided not to get on the internet, just becuase me and my family were having such a good time together. I forgot how much fun I had with my puppies, how much food my parents had accumalated and how good it was to eat a filling meal. They also told me that I lost alot of weight. Fifteen pounds to be exact, but hey, it will make me more attractive to the opposite sex, just as long as I do it tastefully, and I don’t become anerexic(sp?) Anyways, besides the fact that my parents are going crazy about my weight, It has been alot of fun. the drive down was excellent, itwas very very relaxing and gave me time to think, and have some fun. Windows rolled down with my music blaring, the only way to live if you ask me. What else, oh, I got a haircut. Me …

Yeah, the day is finally here! I’m excited, kind of nervous and full of anticipation. I havn’t driven 11 hours by myself, but half way I won’t be alone. Me and my buddy are going down at the same time, except he is going to santafe so I’ll only be alone half way. But yea, i’m excited. I bought some new cd’s for the ride home, some of which, (most actually) I already had, but I bought two new ones lifehouseblink182incubusDefaultMatchbox20HoobastankCreedSo it is going to be a fun ride home….. EXCEPT FOR ONE THING….Betsie is being like her female self and is not letting me play my cd’s. Why? I have no idea, but that’s why I must leave right now and not completly write in the journal, so I can go fix it before my next class starts, after that, I am home free!!! Take care evrybodyand for once in my life I am actually excited and …