Well journal, I suppose people don’t understand that i am watching their every move… every link they click on, every button they press, what time they get here, what time they leave, how long they look at a site, yes I do know journal, but nobody else does…You see, it’s funny. the link "my babe" doesnt refer to that special someone in my life, or my girlfriend. Why you ask? Becuase I don’t have one!!! "my babe" refers to my one and only! my babe, my betsie!!! so why is it that everybody wants to see my babe’s "rear view". I swear, that is the most clicked on picture of this site… this site, for the most part, is rated pg. so if your looking for naked pictures of my girlfriend or my signifigant other, remember, I don’t have one, so go look for porn somewhere else…anyways, for those of you that are here for me, and not for the …

Cut my life into piecesThis is my last resortSuffocationNo breathingDon’t give a f–k if I cut my arm bleedingThis is my last resortCut my life into piecesI’ve reached my last resortSuffocationNo breathingDon’t give a f–k if I cut my arm bleedingDo you even care if I die bleedingWould it be wrong?Would it be right?If I took my life tonightChances are that I mightMutilation outta sightAnd I’m contemplating suicideCause I’m losing my sightLosing my mindWish somebody would tell me I’m fineLosing my sightLosing my mindWish somebody would tell me I’m fineI never realised I was spread too thinTo live was too lateAnd I was empty within hungryFeeding on chaosAnd living in sinDownward spiral where do I begin?It all started when I lost my motherNo love for myselfAnd no love for anotherSearching to find a love up on a higher levelFinding nothing but questions and devilsCause I’m losing my sightLosing my mindWish somebody would tell me in fineLosing my sightLosing my mindWish …

Yippie! well let me tell you how my last few days have gone. Last night I get off work, feeling like the lady in aliens, you know the one where the alien pops outof her stomach. I was so sick, it wasn’t even funny. So I took some medication and out like light bulb I went..today I wake up, my throat is firey red that is burning like crazy! But i’m ok with it, why you ask? Today I putin my two week notice at work. Which is only about a weeks worth of pay, anyways, she was a b with an itch about it so she said that she wanted me to leave today, instead of two weeks, so i was like hell yes!!! Anyways, I hated that job, no respect, pay sucked, and there was no way of advancement. so yea, it stunk. Anyways, that means I am going home!!!! I cant wait. Oh man, I can’t wait. …

Anyways, i’m bored, which is ok with me, just because I like to be bored. ON top of that I am going, somehow, on only 4 hours of sleep :@ I dont get sleep, then I get bored, cranky or depressed. choose one I don’t care, anyways, i’m done maybe i’ll write more on my break, who knows.take carekc

WEll, all was well. I thought I was going home. I got my parents to agree. My parents, mom specific, didn’t want me to drive all the way home. Dad I don’t think really minded al that much, anyways, got the parent’s ok, next was my mall job. No big deal, i’m all set. Now for my job here. Well, nope. It didn’t go through. I have no reason why either. I suppose excelling at your job, not being late, and working for about 3 months, doesn’t cut it? I suppose.At first I was so pissed. I couldn’t beileve it. I had so much stuff I had to do. Stuff I wanted to do. Tons of places to go and about a million times more people to see. to be able to eat a good meal, sneak up on my lexie girl so that she would let me rub her belly and to chase max around the yard. Man, I …

Yikes tommorow I am going to be a busy fellow. I have to get a haircut, (so I can spike it, I hate combing it in the morning :S ) also, I have to pick up a few supplies at walmart, aka gel, toothpaste and then go to safeway for the everfamous (in my household) 4 sixpacks for 3 bucks -loud thunderous music plays- safeway select brand of diet coke, strawberry and grape! aka, all the generic CHEAP brands!I am saving my money for a laptop. My mom was suppose to be looking around and asking people for advice, (she, supposidly was going to get me one) although I don’t need it this week, or maybe next week, defintely within the beginning of the next month will I need it. But anyways, she hasn’t even started yet, and I’m going nuts over here :@ why you ask?kc does not have a lot of time, time kc does have…laptop = fun! …

What to say? I have no idea actually. Today has gone by pretty good. I got all setup for my classes next sememster. My next semester starts in the beggining of october. So that’s about it Right now I am looking for another job though. I am excelling(sp?) at this one right now, it’s just that I want something diffrent. That’s all. But anyways, there are a few places that may be hiring. John Elway motors, and also garts, but other than that not alot.take carekc

Contrary to what people think, my birthday yesterday was an ok day. I suppose it sounded a little, oh, under the weather but it was actually a good day. I ended up only buying a few things. One of which for eight bucks was a blink 182 cd. So that made me happy the rest of my day. that and work went by incredibly, unbeilevable(sp?) fast. so yea, all was good yesterday. But today, I found out this lady I work with is having emergancey surgery and is in the hospital. I just wish everything would be ok, not with just her, but with everything in my life right now. HA, yea right, easier said then done, right? I suppose the ability to change the past is futile, but the future, -puffs out chest- only I can do that! Well, I hope to anyways. I don’t mean to be cocky, well, hell, yes, I mean to be cocky, I just …

Well, today, today I think I am an adult? How do you define adult. Out on your own going to college, semi-independant? Or is it being able to buy a dirty magazine, cigar, or purchasing lottery tickets, or the infamous signing of a legally binding document. If it’s the first response, then technically I became an adult a few months ago. I think.. Technically I am still the same arrogant, stupid, silly, @ss, at heart, but my age. today, I can sign for a telephone bill, I can sign my own documents, heck, I can open up my own bank account if I wanted. Although I’ve already done all of this, well… my roomates helped me, but anyways.. being 18 isn’t cracked up how it’s suppose to be. Usually I would be going home to a cake and ice cream, and a movie right about now, the other day at work they gave me a cake, and they …

OMG!!! coy is alive? Just by a stroke of luck, I went to his site, just to see what’s up, heehe, usually I go and find jack squat but today was diffrent. He actually wrote something :S anyways, like I said, stroke of luck, I think I’ve been to his site two maybe three times throughout my extent of my stay in denver, ok, probabley more but anyways, good to see folks are still alive…Speaking of alive, that’s it, i’m alive as well. Actually I am feeling quite peppy. This morning I took these little pills that are suppose to be stress reliever/vitimans, so I am a little, ahh, I am pretty mellow, in the "I don’t care mood" right now I kind of like this feeling. But anyways, I didn’t have to go to school until noon today. So I washed my car, andanother chicks as well. I did the majority of it, but made here clean …