DAVID!!!
Dude nice flash on your website, wonder where you got the idea from :p

David’s Website

sorry, why do I say labtop? it’s laptop!!!!

For some reason I feel I am talking to myself? Why is that? Has my trusty fan club neglected me? Forgotten about me? Or do they even care? I dunno… I will and shall keep writing just to let EVERYBODY know, I don’t do it for you.. I do it for me….

I thank my lucky stars that I learned php, I have a website I go to that lets me update my journal, without me having to ftp anything. Which is perfect, just because for the simple fact that I cannot ftp anything from home because I have no internet and also becuase of the fact that here the stupid administrators don’t allow the use of any extra programs on their machines.. that’s ok though. I made my journal and it is working quite well for me. Which is good…

anyways, you are probabley wondering what I have been thinkning about latley. And other than a few select people (75% of my thinking time) the rest of the 25% hasn’t been on bills (which they are all paid ) or on anything else, other than the fact of trying to buy a used laptop. This poses quite a serious challenge for me. Why? Becuase a broke college student with only about two hundred bucks to spend and a computer that is probabley worth 200 dollars TOPS, that doesn’t leave a whole lot of room. See, I have called places everwhere and there are tons of them out there!!! There is only like three problems.

Problem #1
It cost to much. For instance at one store a 500mhz labtop would run me about 500 bucks. For that much, I might as well buy a brand new dell for 999. But see, the problem with that is I CAN’T!! I can’t afford it, I mean, I could, but I really wouldn’t want to have that extra added expense. so it cost to much for to little.

problem #2
It cost to mediocore!!! See at another place there is a pretty decent labtop (I only need this computer for my programming class, andmaybe a little bit of music listening.. hehe..) so there is a perfect box, except it cost 3 hundred, meaning that the two hundred I am willing to spend on it lacks a hundred bucks. then I’d have to trade in my whole computer system just for the rest of the money!!! I mean, It would be worth it, but it’s my baby!! I can’t just go and neglect someone/something that has treated me good over the past two years. so that is still lingering….
Problem #3
It is to chinksey(sp?) I dont want to spend money on crap that I will later regret. so.. I am in a delemia. but if I want something, I usually end up getting it, either with hard work or dedication I"ll surley get something that suits me fine

Well anyways, that’s all for now, I need to get going, it’s thursday!! and maybe my last day of work for this week, but It will more than likley be my last entry for a while. but who knows right? anyways, have a good safe weekend. and I’ll shall write again more on monday. bye for now,
kc

Hey everybody, I just notice my last entry was #100!!!!

-party hats go flying everywhere-
Wow, how intresting, everything from sucky experiences, to great experiences, high pointsin life, and absolute rock bottom times of my life are here… feels good to reflect -sniffles- Hehe.. well, not matter how crappy it WAS it IS good right now ;0
take care
kc

lets see.. it’s five thirty, work starts in a half hour. Meaning that I had better get ready for a long night. Well, let me just tell you something, these past 3 nights, combined I probabley have only gotten about 12 hours of sleep. Wether it becuase I’m thinking/wishing/dreaming/analyzing(sp?) something, I’ve not been sleeping well. Anyways, waking up at five oclock every other morning doesn’t help either. And also, the fact that on my actual day that I DO get to sleep in I can’t!!! they are doing construction on our apartments. GRRRRR!!!! at nine or ten oclock every day, you hear "POUND, POUND POUND" on your walls. So yea, kc = no sleep. well, also kc = stupid. Hehe. I am seriously! I decided, well, I’ll take an hours worth of a nap before I go… and now, oh man, I am yawning every five seconds and I can barley walk,
-NOTE TO SELF- I’m so tired, how am I even typing?
anyways, this whole situation reminds me that of a song written by the barenaked ladies, "sleep, and your never going to get it" or something like that.

anyways, yea, i’m tired, and the fact that my mind never stops doesn’t help anything either. For instance, today we had to imagine at every point in our life that we beileved was totall out of place. For instance, growing up, you said you would never drink, and one night you did, and you havn’t since, that one night you drank was totally out of place. for me, I had to think really hard on what I have done, and I suppose I’m the momma’s boy. I went with the approach that ever wanting to be somebody else would be a completly totally out of place for me. Just for the simple fact that I told myself growing up and firmly beileved that we are who we are, we all have our own identies and traits that make us unique. For instance, a guy I know, he is unique, he thinks he’s a cocky bastard, well, I suppose all the ladies like him so he must be either
a.) cocky
b.) attractive
c.) rich

well, Im not any of these, well, maybe a little tiny TINY bit of a. anyways, I’m diffrent them him becuase I use my personality to gain respect. Anywyas, one time in my life, about in febuary of 2002 I wanted to be like somebody else. So I wrote about it. I wrote alot about it, probabley more than anybody else wrote about their own things. anyways, that really got me thinking that I NEVER want to do that again, becuase although I wanted to be like somebody else then…. I got what was coming to me now, if not greater than he. which was my whole reasoning behind wanting to be like somebody else.
I guess the moral of the story, don’t try to be somebody your not, becuase if you stick to your guns, no matter the situation, those that wait, shall recieve.

Well, now that I have totally made NO sense whatsoever and confused the heck out of everybody, why don’t I just leave now? Good idea kc!
bye for now my totally confused fanclub!
kc