Wow! It surley has been a long time.. 3 days.. actually longer than that because of the fact the last two entries were songs. Anyways.. today was pretty exciting. I worked for a lousy three hours until 11:00 and then at one me and two other friends went to go see minority report. It was EXCELLENT. A very very smart movie with lots of action AND not to mention a great story! I liked it a whole lot.. on top of that, the lady that worked there knew us all so we got in for free it was cool. After that we went to play raquet ball. Well, actually we had to teach one of our friends to play. Hehe.. she isnt too too bad at it. In time shell be good. Anyways.. its now nine oclock at night and I barley got home. These next few days are going to be hecttic becuase tommorow is my pre-registration. That will be a good four hour drive… bleh. Itll be good family time though. I suppose.. hehe.. and then sunday, my parents have been searching for a house, so as soon as I move, they too will move. Sort of makes me mad, I would have liked to left clovis 12 and a half years ago, (lived here for 13 years) anyways.. they will more than likley drag me with them to lubbock to look at this house.. hopefully they will be merciful and leave me alone, but who knows… then the next few days after that (could be for one day or permenant) my job is letting me work a full day! Right now that would stink, all I do now is lay tape, shred paper, get coffee, copy papers, paint a metal fence, help load electric wires and lots of other crap. anyways.. this full day job is going to be filing.. which isnt too bad. I like to be by myself. Well, by myself sucks, but with a radio isnt to terribly bad Well, that is me for the next few days.

What else… I am trying to figure out something to write becuase I havnt really written anything the past few days, nor will I want/do write anything in the upcoming days.

I will more than likley be changing the layout of my site. I think it looks gay… but that is just me..

Well, I guess that is it for now… bye bye
Take Care faithful fanclub,
~kc~

Running Away

I don’t want you to give it all up
and leave your own life collecting dust
and I don’t want you to feel sorry for me
you never gave us a chance to be

And I don’t need you to be by my side
and tell me that everythings all right
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
You know I’d do that for you

So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
I did enough to show you that I was willing to give and sacrafice
and I was the one who was lifting you up
when you thought your life had had enough
when I get close you turn away, nothing that I can do or say
so now I need you to tell me the truth
you know I would do that for you

So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?

Is it me? Is it you?
Nothing that
I can do
To make you change your mind

Is it me? Is it you
Nothing that
I can do
Is it a waste of time?

Is it me? Is it you?
Nothing that
I can do
to make you change your mind

So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
(What is it I have to say?)
So why are you running away?
(To make you admit you’re afraid)
Why are you running away?

exactly what I’m feeling.. great song..

kc

Hold on little girl
Show me what he’s doone to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can’t be that bad
When it’s through, it’s through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you
I’m the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you
Chorus Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

Great song, exactly what Im feeling
kc

If the engine is the heart, then its true. I hold the keys to betsies heart.I wish that were the case in a diffrent situation, but betsie will suffice, for now anyways….

I told myself I wouldnt write in my journal for a while. And I just wrote in it a night or so ago.. but I also said that I would post that link asap. so here it is:

http://www.camber.com/greatrace2002/Clovis.htm

But while I am writing.. I might as well tell you about my life altering revelation that I experienced today. I am going to come right out and say it. I am not getting tinkerbell my corvette. I repeat, I am not getting tinkerbell my corvette. Let me explain..

Well, I was at a friends bbq and we watched a movie. It was called cant hardly wait, or soemthing like that. It was about this very popular girl in highschool who wanted all of the popular boys to like her. Well, upon graduation she realised what jerks they were, and decieded that the real men lie in the geeks. So to make a long story short, she didnt like the popular guys afterall, and decided she liked a geek.. Anyways.. this got me thinking about two main situations. Betsie being one of them… Betsie being the geeky represenative, and tinkerbell the popular, harder to get noticed by, represenative. Hopefully this makes sense. If not.. let me try. In highschool, who would you rather want to be noticed by. Captain of the football team or captain of the chess club? Captain of the cheerleading squad or captain of the ceramic club? Of course, most people would say the cheerleader and football team. But when you work your way up this social ladder, and finally get noticed.. sometimes, you realise you dont want to be noticed and would rather be with somebody who appreciates your companey. IE betsie. Betsie knows I exists where as tinkerbell, not only hasnt been manufactured, hasnt even thought about me.

I also got to thinking, the next 3 years I will have betsie. And for 3 years we will depend on each other whole heartedly(sp?). And how would I feel if somebody just tossed me to the side for something bigger and more fancier? I probabley wouldnt appreciate that very much.. so… to sum it all up. I dont want tinkerbell. She doesnt want me.. so.. I am going to invest all my money in betsie. Do something nice for her. We had a heart to engine talk today and betsie knows that all will be good. And she doesnt mind either. I dont want her to change for anything.. although if an opportunity presents itself to change, and the change is for the better, and betsie is happy with it 110% then it is worth it. Only if she wants to.. and beileve you me. She does have a voice in the matter

revelation over

Who knows, maybe my outlook may change here in a few years. but the fact remains that betsie is everything to me and for the next 3 years she shall be pampered, treated like the queen that she is…

Think Im nuts? thats ok by me. I passed my last catscan AND also, I am not the only one out there! i know, I have read other peoples journals.. and other websites.. I take pride in knowing I take good care of nouns that appreciate me, when I say nouns I man persons places or things…

Anyways.. thats all for today.. go check out that website.. have alook around and with that I will say keep reading for my current mp3 AND:
Take Care,
~kc~

Current MP3
SO I NEED YOU If you could step into my head, tell
Me would you still know me
If you woke up in my bed,
Tell me then would you hold me
Or would you simply let it lie,
Leaving me to wonder why
I canÂ’t get you out of this head I call mine
And I will say
Oh no I canÂ’t let you go,
My little girl
Because youÂ’re holding up my world,
So I need you
Your imitation of my walk
And the perfect way you talk
ItÂ’s just a couple of the million things
That I love about you
So I need you
So I need you
So I need you
So I need you
And if I jumped off the Brooklyn Bridge,
Tell me would you still follow me
And if I made you mad today,
Tell me would you love me tomorrow?
Please
Or would you say that you donÂ’t care,
And then leave me standing here
Like the fool who is drowning in dispair
And screaminÂ’
Oh no I canÂ’t let you go,
My little girl
Because youÂ’re holding up my world,
So I need you
Your imitation of my walk
And the perfect way you talk
ItÂ’s just a couple of the million
Things that I love about you
So I need you
So I need you
So I need you
So I need you
IÂ’m on my own
IÂ’m on my own
IÂ’m on my own
Oh no I canÂ’t let you go,
My little girl
Because youÂ’re holding up my world,
So I need you
Your imitation of my walk
And the perfect way you talk
ItÂ’s just a couple of the million things
That I love about you
So I need you
So I need you
So I need you
So I need you!

Well, the old saying all is well that ends well is true I suppose. I should start off saying that I have been selected into westwood elite. Whatever that means. I got a nice certificate and a letter saying congratulations(sp?). that was a big surprise.

Today I had an idea. to normal people itd be a plan except for the fact that a plan theother person has to know about it. the idea was to go to eat, and hang out for a fun day at the great race. Well, 95% of ideas never make it to plans so that was bummer. its ok though, much to my surprise, things did get better. Alot better actually. let me explain

Well, as you know, betsie is my life, yes.. yes she is. Anyways.. downtown was packed! So I had to park way down by mcdonalds in the parking lot. For everybody who doesn’t know, that is literally about a mile and a half walk. So I go.. only to be sent right back home for a bag of ice.. anyways.. on my long hike back. I get to talking with an old friend of my sisters, michelle. To make a long story short I gave her a ride to her car which was another mile away (poor lady) well, she was impressed with betsie, so she said she’d let me wash/wax her car for her too! Easy money! She drives a beetle bug, a new one. Definetly a car that if given to me, i’d take, but not one I’d go out any buy. Anyways.. that was neat, I havn’t spoken to her in years. She’s like 23 now.. or 24.. I havnt spoken to her since I was in the seventh grade. so it was nice.

So I go back home, grab some ice, come back, make an hour hike, ice has now turned to water, so it has been pretty much a wasted trip :p lol… seven oclock rolls around and our drive appears! He drives a 1932 plymouth bb. It was really a neat car. We then drove to poor boys steak house to eat, company’s expense of course You see, bob, our driver, was sponsered by farmers electric, where I work. We talked and talked and he was telling me how when he refurnished his car, it was literaly tore apart and in hundreds of boxes. I got his internet address, and when each of our pictures is on his site, ill post the link asap. It was also funny to know that bob, the driver, named his car winston. If you look on his site, he puts, winston did this, winston did that, winston broke this or needed this or that. It is quite nice knowing other guys likemyself take pride in their vehicles. His wife doesnt understand why he named it, or why he acts the way he does around winston.. but thats ok.. nobody needs to understand what winston and bob have together nor do they need to understand what me and betsie have together.

so that was my night.

ok day turned excellent. Though I would have rather have done other things, I am definetly not complaining. I got to spend time with some nice people, and go out to eat. All in which I had planned on doing, so.. it worked out nicely.

Something else that turns out nicely was max and lexie! I took max and my dad took lexie. it was sooooooooo much fun. Peopel asking left and right if they could pet our dogs. We recieved so many complements. And for all the gentlemen out there who think that a baby is a babe magnet, I have a better solution. Buy a german shepard baby! They live 1/10 less than an actual baby, they don’t complain (too often) and they are low maintenance, and yet equal, if not better at attracting the babes then do babies! Anyways.. I have been true to my word. I havnt written a journal entry in a while now.. at first I was going through withdrawls. Oh my god I need to write in my journal. But when I would think about what I wanted to write about, it was all garbage. except diffrent garbage diffrent days. Anyways.. I am off to bed.. have a nice day/life.
kc