Wow! It surley has been a long time.. 3 days.. actually longer than that because of the fact the last two entries were songs. Anyways.. today was pretty exciting. I worked for a lousy three hours until 11:00 and then at one me and two other friends went to go see minority report. It was EXCELLENT. A very very smart movie with lots of action AND not to mention a great story! I liked it a whole lot.. on top of that, the lady that worked there knew us all so we got in for free it was cool. After that we went to play raquet ball. Well, actually we had to teach one of our friends to play. Hehe.. she isnt too too bad at it. In time shell be good. Anyways.. its now nine oclock at night and I barley got home. These next few days are going to be hecttic becuase tommorow is my pre-registration. …

Running AwayI don’t want you to give it all upand leave your own life collecting dustand I don’t want you to feel sorry for meyou never gave us a chance to beAnd I don’t need you to be by my sideand tell me that everythings all rightI just wanted you to tell me the truthYou know I’d do that for youSo why are you running away?Why are you running away?I did enough to show you that I was willing to give and sacraficeand I was the one who was lifting you upwhen you thought your life had had enoughwhen I get close you turn away, nothing that I can do or sayso now I need you to tell me the truthyou know I would do that for youSo why are you running away?Why are you running away?Is it me? Is it you?Nothing thatI can doTo make you change your mindIs it me? Is it youNothing thatI can doIs it a …

Hold on little girlShow me what he’s doone to youStand up little girlA broken heart can’t be that badWhen it’s through, it’s throughFate will twist the both of youSo come on baby come on overLet me be the one to show youI’m the one who wants to be with youDeep inside I hope you feel it tooWaited on a line of greens and bluesJust to be the next to be with youBuild up your confidenceSo you can be on top for oncewake up who cares aboutLittle boys that talk too muchI seen it all go downYour game of love was all rained outSo come on baby, come on overLet me be the one to hold youChorus Why be alone when we can be together babyYou can make my life worthwhileAnd I can make you start to smileGreat song, exactly what Im feelingkc

If the engine is the heart, then its true. I hold the keys to betsies heart.I wish that were the case in a diffrent situation, but betsie will suffice, for now anyways….I told myself I wouldnt write in my journal for a while. And I just wrote in it a night or so ago.. but I also said that I would post that link asap. so here it is:http://www.camber.com/greatrace2002/Clovis.htmBut while I am writing.. I might as well tell you about my life altering revelation that I experienced today. I am going to come right out and say it. I am not getting tinkerbell my corvette. I repeat, I am not getting tinkerbell my corvette. Let me explain..Well, I was at a friends bbq and we watched a movie. It was called cant hardly wait, or soemthing like that. It was about this very popular girl in highschool who wanted all of the popular boys to like her. Well, upon graduation …

Well, the old saying all is well that ends well is true I suppose. I should start off saying that I have been selected into westwood elite. Whatever that means. I got a nice certificate and a letter saying congratulations(sp?). that was a big surprise.Today I had an idea. to normal people itd be a plan except for the fact that a plan theother person has to know about it. the idea was to go to eat, and hang out for a fun day at the great race. Well, 95% of ideas never make it to plans so that was bummer. its ok though, much to my surprise, things did get better. Alot better actually. let me explainWell, as you know, betsie is my life, yes.. yes she is. Anyways.. downtown was packed! So I had to park way down by mcdonalds in the parking lot. For everybody who doesn’t know, that is literally about a mile and a half …

You are probabley wondering why I havnt written in my journal this past week. Well, I must admit, I have been trying not to write in it as often. Maybe once or twice a week. I need start weening myself off of things and people that remind me of my normal life. Such as not spending as much time with certain people, parents, friends ect.. stop getting on the computer so much. Stop watching to many movies. I need to ween myself off of these things and get ready for a change in lifestyles. I need and want to forget alot of things about this life up until now.. and when I move to denver and start over, I’d like to make things better for myself. I will some how..Anyways… I just got back from my raquet ball class. I am enjoying it so much. It has brought me into new things. Me and a bunch of friends either play …

AdrienneI’ve been thinking about you, my loveAnd all the crazy things that you put me throughNow I’m coming around, throwing it back to youWere you think of me, when you kissed himCould you taste me when you licked his skinAnd all that while I showered you with trust and promisesWhat I’m needing now is some sweet revengeTo get back all that I lost thenI gave you all I had to give, but I could never reach you Chorus:Adrienne, I thought I knew youOnce again, you used me, used meAdrienne, I should have left youLong before you used me, used me up Spent my money, drove my carI treated you like a shining starBut in my sky all burnt out you areAnd I’ll have the last laugh, when I see you walking with some other guy‘Cause I know you are gonna end up all aloneSo take these words, some good adviceAll you’ve done’s gonna come back twiceYou never cared how much …

I wonder, how’s it going to beWhen it goes downHow’s it going to beWhen you’re not aroundHow’s it going to beWhen you found out there was nothingBetween you and meCause I don’t careHow’s it going to beAnd how’s it going to beWhen you don’t know me anymoreAnd how’s it going to beWho’s got their clawsin you my friendInto your heart I’ll beat againSweet like candy to my soulSweet you rockand sweet you rollLost for you I’m so lost for youYou come crash into meAnd I come into you,I come into youIn a boys dreamIn a boys dreamTouch your lips just so I knowIn your eyes, love, it glows soI’m bare-boned and crazy for youWhen you come crashinto me, babyAnd I come into youi will buy you a gardenwhere your flowers can bloomi will buy you a new carperfect shiny and newi will buy you that big houseway up in the west hillsi will buy you a new lifeyes i willi …

Yes, to any members of the band called the verve pipe. I must say.. it has been far to long since your last record. I loved everysong on it. I wish you would produce some more great songs, Your music, along with many other great artists get me through so many times. Good and the bad alike. It mostly helps me get through the bad, and makes my good times that much better.. but anyways. Today I did some soul/music searching. I put in some of my older cds. Everclear, lifehouse, dave matthews band, third eye blind. Man, so many great bands, not enough fingers and toes to count. I was listening to a select few songs…Hows it going to be ~ Third eye blindI will buy you a new life ~ EverclearEverything to everyone ~ EverclearCrash ~ Dave matthews bandMan, each has made me think today. Just listen to the lyrics. Im all about the lyrics a …

Ok.. i am going to make this as complicated as possible. Why you ask, becuase I am a simple guy that does not have enough sleep right now My speech is slurred and my typing, well, it just sucks right now.1 house = 2,000 sq feet1 neighborhood (30 houses) = 60,000 sq feet1 Betsie = 66 sq feet1 bird crap = .000000001 sq feetOk.. so… in my neighborhood there is approximatly 60,000 sq feet for a bird to do its business right? Well, the odds that you randomly place a .000000001 sq feet bird crap in a 60,000 sq foot area.. the odds that it gets withing a 66 ft range proximaty(sp?) is pretty stinking rare. Hell, its darn near impossible. BUT for somereason somebody is mocking me… not one, not two, not three, not four, and not even five but six, COUNT THEM SIX FRIGGIN BIRD CRAPS ON MY CAR this morning.moral of the storythe odds of …