Life is a highway….

Well, today, as usual, I find myself learning something new about myself every day. First let me start off sharing my song for today. It was a tossup. Either between Tommy Cochran’s – life is a highway or shakira’s underneath your clothes. Well, I had to choose. tough tough decision. But after reviewing underneath your clothe’s lyrics more carefully. I find it to be related to love. And love, well.. I havnt had much luck with it. So I am going to pick life is a highway -CHEERS- so without much further ado here it is:

Life’s like a road that you travel on
When there’s one day here and the next day gone
Sometimes you bend sometimes you stand
Sometimes you turn your back to the wind
There’s a world outside every darkened Door
Where blues won’t haunt you anymore
Where the brave are free and lovers soar
Come ride with me to the distant shore
We won’t hesitate break down the garden gate
There’s not much left todayLife is a highway
I want to ride it all night long
If you’re going my way
I want to drive it all night long Through all the cities and all these towns
It’s in my blood and it’s all around
I love you now like I loved you then
This is the road and these are the hands
From mozambique to those memphis nights
The khyber pass to vancouver’s lights
Knock me down get back up again
You’re in my blood I’m not a lonely man There’s no load I can’t hold
Road so rough this I know
I’ll bee there when the light comes in
Tell ‘em we’re survivors Chorus x2 There was a distance between you and I
A misunderstanding once but now
We look it in the eye There’s no load I can’t hold
Road so rough this I know
I’ll be there when the light comes in
Tell ‘em we’re survivors
I dont know about you, but this song is great. Life is a highway. Lots of twists and turns, high speed limits and low ones. Obstacles in the road. Destinations to get to, and fun places to visit along the way. All in this game we call life. now I dont know about the whole love thing, becuase Ive never experienced love, but Im sure if the song is right about everything else.. Im positive it is right about that topic. Well, I hope it is anyways. I wonder what it is like. I mean, falling and love and getting married. That is one long commitment. What if your partner doesntfeel the same way about you? Geez.. that would be so horrible. I couldnt even imagine. Ive had my heart broken so many times it is just old now. But to really be in love.. lol.. oh well.. I have betsie. I have betsie. Feels good to say that. I have betsie. Nobody can say they have betsie. why? Becuase I have betsie. Not you, but me. she is mine. Forever and forever. Until some horrific accident parts us. She shall be mine forever, without any complaints I might add Betsie, I have betsie. That brings me back to the whole, life is a highway topic. Life is a highway. And right now in my life, Id be a fool to want to die, I have so much going for me. I really do beileve I can make my mark on the world. Become a somebody and actually feel good about myself. Although right now, I am not feeling any of it, but on this highway called life I shall make my destination. Even if I have to take a billon detours. I will.. which begs me to ask the question. when I do, eventually, get there and me and betsie have to part, due to my corvette. What will I do with betsie? Will she forever be mine? Will i treat her with the same respect and care for her as I do now? I hope, that I am a decent enough man to say this with a hundred and ten percent satisfaction, that yes, I she will forever be mine, and I will treat her with the same respect and care for her as I do now. Why? Just becuase I get a corvette, she will still be with me. She has never once left my side and has never spoken badly about me. (Hopefully she never speaks to me.. hehe..) and more importantly she has always been there for me. In my most troublesome times..

By now you probabley think of me as some sick and twisted individual that has either
A.) way to much time on his hands
b.) A complete loser with nothing else to hold onto
c.) Somebody that likes who he is, values and appreciate things that means alot to him, who is who he is and just so happens to take alot of pride in his accomplishments, even if it means making himself look like a complete and utter idiot.

The correct answer is C.
I value my accomplishments. And I take pride knowing that I have earned betsie. Even if it means acting like an idiot, at the expense of people liking me. I do care, do not get me wrong. But I am who I am. And I dont want to change just just to make myself look like something I am not. That isnt me, nor will that ever be me. Hopefully, I can make myself change inner qualities that I find repulsive about myself, but that will happen in due time. But until that happens.. I have betsie, I have betsie! Ha, you dont have her! Nor will you ever! Ha!

rant/vent over

Well, today was fairly productive.. I think…
I worked a heck of a lot today. Although Im sure I will be written up for something. I worked 4 hours of over time. Big Big no no. but if they dont like it, they can just suck on some big fat apples. I dont care, they dont pay me enough nor do they give me enough hours to make a dent in my college savings fund. I suppose that is the wrong state of mind.. but it doesnt bother me any… I need to talk with my neighbor, but I havnt had the chance. I am so hoping that she will be the greatest person in my life for today, and come over and tell me she musturd that job for me! If not.. hopefully ben franklins will pull through for me.. My mind is full of wishful thinking, on lots of things not just work, so if I am not good enough for these two jobs.. then so be it. It will give me time to relax and learn more about myself. Which would be good. I have changed so much in the past 3 years. Most of it for the better and Im proud -PUFFS OUT CHEST- hehe.. anyways… that is my egotisticalness showing.. which by the way is something bad that I have acquired over these past 3 years… anyways.. back to my train of thought… so I worked alot today.. then I went to a friends house, came back and read alot of my bernie mac book. It is so great, has alot of cussing, but it is so true and so funny at the same time. he talks about how he is tired of people acting like somebody else, just for acceptance. Which, I have been known to do it at times and I for one hate it. hate it hate it. Why should somebody act like something they are not just to get acceptence. That isnt fair to the acceptor and the aceptee(sp?) so anyways.. that is a great book..
I also had a bbq all by myself.. my mom has been gone for 6 hours now.. my dad is at work, so all you physco pathic killers out there, if you act quickly.. you can add me to your list.

So what am I going to do tonight? Probabley not much.. just talk to people and watch a movie. I need to watch a good wholesome lovie dovie movie or a comedy. Probabley a comedy. Id take a comedy any day of the week. I love to laugh. It makes me feel that much better. OH! almost forgot. Not only do I have betsie, I have lexie! She is my puppy. today I think we really bonded. for whatever reasons I have no idea.. but we did. all the while I was gone, my mom said she was sitting at the door, and for the 3 or 4 hours I was gone she never moved her position until I returned home. Now I cant get her out from under my feet! I love lexie. She is such a great puppy. And an even better base for me to build emotional strength. Anyways.. now that i have actually noticed how much I have been rambling I had better go. I am listening to old music whichI havnt listend to in a while, space between, time of your life and ect.. anyways.. I have rambled enough. besides that.. mom just entered the house with about 50 boxes of shoes.. Geez… women and their shoes, and geeky guys with there vehicles.. what is next? Who knows…
Take Care,
~kc~