Well, this morning I ran around town running my errands. Filling out financial aid stuff. Washed the inside and outside of betsie. I sort of had to. Lauren went with me today.
Wow, lauren went with me today. THE lauren! Yes, the same lauren I met my sophmore year. The same lauren I wanted to awknowledge my existence. The same lauren I would have loved to have just spoken with her for 5 minutes. And she, lauren, was sitting in my car, and I was privelaged enough to buy her ice cream 
Also privelaged enough to take time out of laurens day. You just dont understand how many times I had to tell myself this Why have I mentioned her so many times you ask? In hopes that one day she will read this and realise(sp?) how much she leaves me in awe, and one of the few reasons why leaving clovis will be so crappy. And in hopes that she would forgive me. You see, I told her a lie. Im paraphrasing of course, but I told her something to the extent, in an email, that I wished she thought of me as much as I do of her. Although now I wish I hadnt, becuase now, with college approaching and time for the class of 02 to go their own seperate ways, other than my parents and closest of friends, she will be one of the very select few people that I will have the hardest time leaving behind. and if she thinks of me alot, it will make it that much harder. She has helped me see things in a much bigger picture (before I had blinders to the world 
) so lauren I thank you for that. one final thought, lauren you rock!
Lauren count = 11
Multiply that by a billion and you get the picture as to what type of a person she is.
Ok.. enough enough Hopefully she doesnt think I am stalking her.. hehe.. I am not! I just pay attention to detail thats all.
Anyways.. lets talk about my true love betsie. Today was a sad day. I washed her. It took me about 2 and a half hours. I usually take my time and make it seem like I actually put forth some effort.. but that is besides the point. Today I found she has alot of tiny tiny scratches! From a distance you cannot tell they are there, although when pointed out up close, they are very obvious. I am so sad! And to top it off.. not only a hour after I washed her she has gotten all dirty! Like I went to fast over a water puddle or something.. Grrr… hehe.. sorry.. Im hyper, Its only 9:30, I am sooo exhuasted, I have had so much coke to keep me wired until next new years eve. Which is ok.. becuase.. well.. I dont know why. Anyways.. let me get back to betsie. I washed her. I had to clean up ice cream somebody spilt a while back.. $coughs$ wont mention any names.. hehe.. but all is well now. Hopefully betsie knows how much I appreciate her, although sometimes I do treat her poorly. Though Im sure she understands. Id never do anything to harm her, well, on purpose anyways. Accidents do happen. And hopefully betsie understands this, and will continue to function like the princess she is. I just hope she wont get jealous of tinker bell.
What am I going to do tommorow? I have no idea. But if worse comes to worse I will rent a good movie. I havnt seen the southpark movie which I hear is excellent. so that should be fun. I have been trying to do simple stuff to keep my busy.. stupid stuff. like barbaque, mow the yard, weed eat, walk the dogs, take the dogs to green acres, clean the house, do the dishes. all to keep my mind clear and to pass the time. anyways.. I had better get going.. becuase my eyes are getting a little heavey… anyways.. night all. And thanks for reading. And please, to me, you are perfect how you are. You is what makes you attractive intellegent and a good person. So try not to be somebody your not.. for me.. ok?!
Take Care,
~kc~
ps Seems like I just did this… but krazy! Email me please and at least give me your location!
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